[become_UNmasked]

i can't tell if its my anxiety making me so sick i could puke, or if its just the side effect of my meds...

yesterday i remembered something that i had repressed... i remembered in church drawing pictures of naked men, one man was laying on a bed of spikes being tormented.

i think this is where my anxiety is coming from in that im scared of what this may mean about my childhood.

[Pretender]

You should find a therapist/social worker. It's really the best option. I understand if you don't want to but it helps. I hate talking to people about personal issues and I try to avoid it at all costs but I realized if I want to get better I needed professional help. Look for one who specializes in Cognitive Behavior. And besides you learning coping skills for anxiety you may also be able to figure out if your past was troubled or not. I hope this helps.

[shezbut]

(((hugs)))

It sounds like anxiety to me.

That image is a horrible memory to have. What brought that memory out? I have no idea. Bringing it up in therapy sounds like the best idea to me.

Best wishes to you!

[Perna]

If it is recent, the puking, I'd go with the meds. Remembering the image and worrying about what your childhood may have been like sounds too diffuse (not the image, the worry) to cause the extreme of anxiety, the puking? Usually when we discover something unpleasant and scary like that, it actually helps focus the anxiety some because at least now we have a "reason" to be afraid. You can now go to a therapist and discuss this incident and your childhood and what you remember of your childhood and going to church, etc. Before that, you had "nothing"? Nothing is much scarier than finding something, to me at least.