[Astridetal]

I lost an important online source of support yesterday, to no fault of my own. I don't know really why this bothers me so much, more even than when my husband is mad with me. I can't seem to get over it, even th ough I have other places to go, like PC. I feel totally rejected. Old pain comes back to me and I feel like no-one cares about me. I know this is irrational, but well.

[dailyhealing]

I find that relatively "small" events in life can bring about that old pain you mentioned. I think it is good you recognize this, but it also makes it no easier to deal with those bad feelings. I'm glad you posted this, and hope the feelings of rejection pass soon. And I certainly can relate to that feelings of no one caring about me, it feels awful! Take care.

By the way, I love your Tori Amos quote!

[roads]

Astridetal:

I lost an important online source of support

You've lost a friend, and there's nothing a bit irrational about that bothering you!

Why it's triggering old pain and bringing On feelings of rejections goes beyond what you've posted, Astridetal. You may know that. But I've got some folks here at PC whose support over the months I've been here has grown slowly and surely to prove throughtful, experienced, and open for exploration. We've come to know each other, and so they are part of my support network. I would miss them greatly if, for any reason, the connection came to an close.

There must be more to this; otherwise, it seems to me what you're experiencing is completely normal, emotionally. A loss is a loss--even with replacements at hand. Replacements are still change.

[artist79]

At least you know some of your feelings may be irrational or blowing things out of proportion. That's good. One thing I learned through experience, is feelings and thoughts can lie. They are ok to have no matter what they are, but I learned I can't always trust them. I have had to go years ignoring unwelcome thoughts that I had no control over. I know they are lies, so it helps. They pass. This too will pass. These sad feelings of rejection will take their course, and you'll be ok. Just hang in there.

-Amy

[Moodysmood]

This post resonates immensely with me. Thank you for posting it. I can't tell you on how many occasions I have felt maybe something of insignificance to the world felt inside like it could completely destroy me because I was missing it beyond comprehensible reason or it was something minor done (not even on purpose, perhaps) that I took terrible offense to, regardless of how big a deal it actually was if I think about it. Sorry i am being so general. I feel upset with myself when I do this same thing. I tend to immediately demand I stop feeling like I do, that it's silly of me. I truly don't believe experiencing emotional distress in losing a valuable mental well being resource through no fault of your own is something to chastise yourself about at all. You form attachments and to have those suddenly severed no notice can be devastating. I know it's not much coming from me, but I send you a hug and wish you well in coping. I hope you can find some added comfort here. Hang in there.

[Astridetal]

Thanks everyone for your support.

@Roadie: there is a lot more behind this. I can't go into detail about the support I lost, but they weren't a long-time friend but I did feel a strong attachment somehow. It also triggers old pain from rejection that happened in the past. I don't know if it's normal, you say it is, but I feel stupid for being more rejected than when for example my husband is mad at me. Maybe it's becaus emy husband will only be mad for an hour or so, but I don't know.