[Mysterygirl202]

So recently my friend/counselor of mine we went out to talk about how I had recently failed on the whole cutting issue. And she had said previous between my not eating and cutting I have self destructive tendencies. But then she said she was wondering why I failed this time cause nothing bad had happened I just did it. And didn't even know why, she started to explain that maybe I won't let myself just be fine and happy. Like something has to be wrong with me. Does this make any sense?

[mazing]

It completely makes sense

Only you can say exactly what happened, but it is a possibility she is right. Sometimes people can get so involved in the concept of victimisation and the pain that it is very difficult to get out of it.. that is one of the reasons that SI is seen as an addiction. Just like other addictions, even when there is nothing currently wrong that would cause relapse it is very difficult to break the habits.

Hang in there though It is possible to overcome, and a good place to start is looking at if there was anything at all underlying your recent relapse. If not, maybe start looking at other distracting techniques for when the temptation is there. I know it is hard but it is possible.

[visalissa]

I personally think the reaon i cut for "no reaon" is because of the past. it still gets to me. So if you are the same way this could be another explanation

[namaste13]

it could be because you don't remember how to be happy. that feeling may be so foreign and unfamiliar that it leads you to cut.

[lovepeace12]

Ur rite it makes no sense

[Towanda]

Yeah, used to make complete sense to me before I stopped. I was afraid to succeed, afraid to think that I was worthy of success. And being able to not SI meant that I was successful.

[MandaMay]

I used to be the same way... in fact I am still the same way, but with out the cutting, I try to talk my self out of things, I keep telling people all I want is to be happy... but I keep failing and keep transferring my emotions on to others then blaming them for my unhappiness. also, when you have done something over and over you condition your mind to keep doing those things, like when you were younger and were being taught how to bathe, say your abc's etc, you did not question why you just did them.... maybe you put yourself in a loop that you just have to learn how to break out of....

[Mysterygirl202]

Thank you everyone! You all helped a lot. I hope I can get out of this. It's just all I've known forever. Which sucks. GAHH. Okie. It'll b ok