[Solitudeisme]

Having my own lil pity party here, not sure why, just woke up angry and annoyed, and now I feel so desperately sad, and I don't really know why, besides the fact I wonder why me? well it has to be somebody I guess, but I keep plodding along, always 'fine' or 'ok' and some days are great days, some are easy to pretend 'its all ok' days, but some are like today, where I go on super selfish mode and wallow and cry and feel sorry for myself. Not sure how long it will last, hopefully not long, as its all very draining, but then to be fair, just existing is draining. Not posting for hugs etc, just wanted to vent somewhere where I can at least be sure someone will see it, why that matters I have no clue.

[Solitudeisme]

And now I've had yet another falling out with a friend, and I'm wondering if he's right, maybe I'm just not a very nice person and should stick to myself, and not try and be friends with anyone, or try and trust them.

[Thunder Bow]

Work on your Emotional Maturity. Therapy may help. Work on remembering childhood experiences, and what was said to you while you were growing up. Become more aware how you related to your parents when you were little.

[Solitudeisme]

Originally Posted by Thunder Bow

Work on your Emotional Maturity. Therapy may help. Work on remembering childhood experiences, and what was said to you while you were growing up. Become more aware how you related to your parents when you were little.

My parent issues are long past and dealt with via therapy, however my depression and OCD still needs work, which I am in the process of. My post was a self journal if you like.

[avlady]

I hope you feel better soon. I used to cry all the time when i was younger. Then there came a day when I cried so much i cried for the last time. I havn't cried tears in over 20 years, i guess that was my last cry.

[Solitudeisme]

Originally Posted by avlady

I hope you feel better soon. I used to cry all the time when i was younger. Then there came a day when I cried so much i cried for the last time. I havn't cried tears in over 20 years, i guess that was my last cry.

Yes I feel better today, though at 36 I do still cry, but I'm not ashamed that I cry still, just wish it didn't happen that I feel down so often, been a lot just recently...

[Thunder Bow]

Originally Posted by Solitudeisme

My parent issues are long past and dealt with via therapy, however my depression and OCD still needs work, which I am in the process of. My post was a self journal if you like.

The Human Mind has many layers it. Thus your journey will be long. Posting your self journal is OK, but this is the internet so be selective as to what you post.

[Perna]

It helps me to look at each "falling out"/problem with friends and loved ones as part of that whole relationship. We "know" the good friend and that they will be back and things will be made up and that our bad/down mood of today will be forgiven just as we forgive theirs when they bother us and the relationship will move forward again on a more even keel.

[Solitudeisme]

I excuse myself slightly as i'm merry, but I take back that I'm not nice, lots of people tell me i'm nice, verses one person telling me i'm not, as my buddy would say 'ciao bella maria, you are a loverly laydee' awww I miss her tons

[Solitudeisme]

Originally Posted by Thunder Bow

Work on your Emotional Maturity. Therapy may help. Work on remembering childhood experiences, and what was said to you while you were growing up. Become more aware how you related to your parents when you were little.

lol lol lol my emotional maturity is buried under all the other attention seeking posts on this site, we post coz we want a response, hmm maybe thats why I only chk in here once a week or so....

[Thunder Bow]

Originally Posted by Solitudeisme

lol lol lol my emotional maturity is buried under all the other attention seeking posts on this site, we post coz we want a response, hmm maybe thats why I only chk in here once a week or so....

You are doing well. Honor Yourself and you will feel much better!

[Perna]

I love "why me?" days, the first question I ask myself is a very sarcastic, "Well, who else would you rather it be?" Do or think something to get yourself laughing a bit and jolly yourself out of the bad mood.