[RunningEagleRuns]

Man everyone in my family argues all the time. I think its gods way of cursing me for my sin/not doing what the voices want. IT SUCKS! Im no better, but still. It makes me so frustrated. Im very suicidal now.. I tried getting a book on suicide to help myself but the stupid library didnt have it. WADDA I DO?

[RunningEagleRuns]

I dunno what else to say.. but i need help

[Leed]

First of all, you DON'T think about suicide! Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem!!! Things aren't always going to be like this. There will come a time when you're OUT of that house.

I came from a dysfunctional family too. My parents were ALWAYS arguing. My sister TORMENTED me -- she was 7 years older than me, and she HATED me. She tormented me from the day I was born until she left when she was 19 yrs old. My parents never did a thing about it cause she was "such an angel." Yeah, right. She darn near killed me.

Don't think about suicide. Can't you IMAGINE what it would do to people? It would DEVASTATE people who care about you. And you're thinking that people don't love you. That's BULL. You ARE loved -- by your family & friends! And you have more friends than you think you do. Family & friends would be just devastated. Suicide is SELFISH. People never think of the ones left behind.

You have a wonderful life ahead of you. Life is a GIFT. Treat it like that. You can do anything you like. Think of something you'd like to spend your life doing. Music? The Arts? Science? Medicine? ???? Anything!
You've got plenty of time to make up your mind.

God bless & please take care. You'll be out of there soon. Hugs, Lee

[RunningEagleRuns]

Originally Posted by Leed

First of all, you DON'T think about suicide! Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem!!! Things aren't always going to be like this. There will come a time when you're OUT of that house.

I came from a dysfunctional family too. My parents were ALWAYS arguing. My sister TORMENTED me -- she was 7 years older than me, and she HATED me. She tormented me from the day I was born until she left when she was 19 yrs old. My parents never did a thing about it cause she was "such an angel." Yeah, right. She darn near killed me.

Don't think about suicide. Can't you IMAGINE what it would do to people? It would DEVASTATE people who care about you. And you're thinking that people don't love you. That's BULL. You ARE loved -- by your family & friends! And you have more friends than you think you do. Family & friends would be just devastated. Suicide is SELFISH. People never think of the ones left behind.

You have a wonderful life ahead of you. Life is a GIFT. Treat it like that. You can do anything you like. Think of something you'd like to spend your life doing. Music? The Arts? Science? Medicine? ???? Anything!
You've got plenty of time to make up your mind.

God bless & please take care. You'll be out of there soon. Hugs, Lee

thanks that helps

[RunningEagleRuns]

I got a book called "not with my life i dont" its aright. im pretty much seeking help.

[krosis]

I agree with Leed. Definitely don't do it.

It looks like you're looking for books? I don't know any that address suicide, but I would suggest looking at some books by some Buddhists. It probably sounds like a strange recommendation, but Buddhism is all about trying to get rid of suffering. Pema Chodron has quite a few and there's one called "Don't Take Your Life Personally" by Ajahn Sumedho.

[TerryL]

You might be able to find some good articles online too. Please take care.

[RunningEagleRuns]

yea ill try... i came close to throwing myself outta the car tonight

[Thunder Bow]

Lots of energy in that family of yours. Are there any feelings? The soft kind I mean. Fear of being volurenable is offten behind the argueing.

[RunningEagleRuns]

yea there are good feelings... just alot of arguing too

[Thunder Bow]

Step out of the arguements when you can, your give yourself some disstance. Visit family only when you feel like it.