[yellowted]

I feel like i am overflowing with anger, frustration and rejection, i have no one close to talk to, so why is it i can't seem to show these feelings, all i do is cry when really i know i would feel much better having a terrible twos temper tantrum, but never seem able to even though i am alone the majority of the time.

[Lamplighter]

Ditto, I feel all the time like I'm really raging, but can never get it out .

For what it's worth I think that preferring to feel angry can be a defence mechanism, anger is much more empowering and makes you feel a whole lot better than tears sadness grief loss powerlessness etc...

So maybe you actually NEED to cry? Maybe if you just go with whatever feelings are coming up, you'll get to the anger in the end? Just throwing this out there, I'm a dunce when it comes to feelings and have problems even recognizing them, but I do relate to how frustrated you must be feeling

Torn

[Leed]

Can you go in your room, close the door and start pounding on your pillows? Does that help? Have you tried it? Maybe that will START the release of the anger. If it does, then keep pounding and start screaming & yelling, and holler at whomever you're mad at! I do that, and boy does it help! I visualize the person I'm mad at, and the pillow becomes that person. LOL I pound the living daylights out of it. LOL

It really helps me. My therapist told me to do this. Works for me. Hugs, Lee

[yellowted]

Hi Leed, i have tried that, i can't get the release i need, i get so frustrated and exhausted that i end up just crying and crying too tired to do anything else, i really can't seem to get enough energy to be angry. my brain keeps telling me 'what's the point in getting angry or shouting when it won't change my situation and no one will hear me anyway

[sixxchik]

Hey....I feel ur pain. Sometimes I feel like a stick of dynamite walking around. I used to blow up more (when I used to drink), but now I cant seem to let "it" out and its a CONSTANTLY in ur brain. Ido you have a hobby to throw yourself into? (I dont, feel so wrapped up in my on brain I cant even think of anything I like), i know going to the gym would help and I DO belong but lugging myself there is my obstacle. I want one of those heavy punching bagss so I could just wail outt all my pent up stress. Because I have NOTHING as a stress reliever..

[yellowted]

I do have hobbies, gerbils and voluntary work which all help to get a break from my feelings, but as soon as i am alone they flood back. i would love to go to a gym, but unfortunately the only accessible one in my area is only for people with other dx's so i can't go, i am going to try and ask to be referred again but don't hold out much hope. throwing things is a great help, i often gather stones then go to the river and throw them one by one as hard as i can into the water.

[feel so wrapped up in my on brain I cant even think of anything I like]

i get like that too, and although i do have hobbies i rarely follow them.

if you find punching theraputic have you tried the pillows on your bed or a big soft toy or the sofa

[roads]

I've always been near water (even a swimming pool would do) & I'll kick it. I also found one of those kid's punching bags in a thrift store years back, the kind with a lip you stand on to hold it in place. Throwing rocks in the river is great too. I lived near a boxing gym for a short time & they let me have a go at the punching bag there.

When I'm so-angry-I-see-red I exercise hard & it always ends up in tears then deep, deep sleep & usually I'll feel much better for a long while. The therapy, though, has gotten me beyond the anger to a large extent ... only one episode recently. Huge progress. Sure have punched out a lot of inanimate objects along the way, though