I have pondered over some issues that I am going through and among them is loneliness. I have struggled with loneliness for so long I don't know what I can do. I have not been able to contact my friends for social life on teh weekends. It seems as if everybody else is just busy these days. Back then, you got to throw lavish parties and attend them. Now it's no longer the same. I wish I was the life of a party but of course if I ever told anyone they would laugh at me and another voice would tell me you don't deserve and I try to counter that by saying that I do.
you may think that I feel entitled to everything but of course I do sometimes because I have no one to talk to in my spare time and I need someone to be around me. I want people and yet I'm not getting them in my life. they need to play a more impacting role. I am reaching out to them but they won't reach out to me. what the heck! why can't i be a part of the big group?

[optimize990h]

heyitme7, what do you mean friends? if you can't socialize with them in your free time and that causes you loneliness, makes me think if they are just school friends. I read one posts where you go to your friend's house. So, I am just trying to get an idea of what you know by loneliness?

You socialize with these people, but you still feel lonely? Or without your friends, you get lonely?

Originally Posted by optimize990h

heyitme7, what do you mean friends? if you can't socialize with them in your free time and that causes you loneliness, makes me think if they are just school friends. I read one posts where you go to your friend's house. So, I am just trying to get an idea of what you know by loneliness?

You socialize with these people, but you still feel lonely? Or without your friends, you get lonely?

without my friends. plus sometimes when i wear a certain necklace around me, i get noticed. my friends have like beads dangling on their sweater and nobody even cares. when i have them, the whole earth seems to demur.

[Lovely Loss]

I don't mean to tell you this but I think it's something you need to think about. I don't believe it's your friends that need to play I bigger role, I think it's you. A lot of people are in the same place as you and I guess I'm one of them. We're so filled with hate for who we are that our self-worth comes from others. We depend on other people for our happiness and that isn't always an easy thing to do, actually it never is.
I know it's hard, but you need to give yourself what others don't, be the love you wish to have. Because you're the only person you know won't abandon you and you need to have faith in yourself.
I hate to see you in such a bad state of mind, I hate to see anyone like that really. And I wish I could make it easier on you, just wish away the pain. But we all know I can't do that, you're the only person who can make this easier on yourself and I hope that you'll see that one day.
Good luck, you're in my thoughts and I'm hoping the best for you. Truly I am .

[avlady]

You're in my thoughts to if that helps, people can be ignorant without even knowing it, you feel you're being ignored, maybe people read this in you, and leave you to yourself if you are shy etc... Maybe someday one of these other shy people will open up to you someday, soon i hope, but if you put yourself in the same place an someone recognises you and speaks to you you may make a friend.

yeah looking back there were times when i had to find my teachers. like on the second day of being at this new school, i had to look for my teachers, because there was an earthquake drill that we had to show up to. i was searching for all my classmates and nobody was there until i asked an old woman who just so happened to be another math teacher was i able to get to my class. you see, for me, it's not easy. i have to do everything myself. i hate being alone. i hate it. what's more, i'm an only child, and I have always longed for a sibling, but i guess it's too late. should i blame it on fate?

i chose marilyn monroe because she has led a pretty unhappy life when she was still here and now when i look back to it, she had been through worse. she like me was an only child, but she had go through a lot of foster care, and her father abandoned her at a very young age. when she went to see him, she was not welcomed. that was very sad.

[sprik]

I have hundreds of friends on facebook, but no real friend. I cant get myself to get out of the house, unless it a appt for the kids. I want to volunteer but I rather lay on the couch and say I will do it at the next show.

thank you all for being considerate towards me. May this thread be closed, please. Thanks so much.