Moods control action?

Of course, moods affect actions, but there must be a way to contol the mood so that I can do the action I want to do.
EX: My husband has been quite ill for the past three years. I lost my two sons within 27 months. My youngest was in the hospital emergency room pending referral to a psychiatric unit and the ER doc overdosed him. He was 24. Just 4 months ago my oldest committed suicide. He was 32. I have one daughter, 30, who is thriving and doing beautifully. There is a history of mental illness in the family. My side of the family is prone to depression and bipolar. The kids father has personality disorders, is abusive (physically and emotionally) and has a history of schzophrenia in his family.
I say all this because I do so want to have a neat tidy house, a beautiful flower garden, etc. Not Better Homes and Gardens, just pleasant.
I'm a full time caregiver to my husband.
How do I manage my moods and be productive when what I really want to do is sleep?

Bless your heart ~ You have been thru hell, and my heart goes out to you. I am so very sorry for the loss of your sons. I cannot even imagine what you have gone thru! You are an INCREDIBLY strong woman, Muppy, and you have my utmost respect! You also have my prayers.

Muppy, of course your exhausted and that's why you want to sleep. You're emotionally exhausted. Your mind is going 100 miles an hour, and you haven't had a moments' peace! I doubt you've had a good night's sleep in forever. Have you talked to your doctor about this? If not, would you do that please?

Also, talk to your doctor about depression, because you certainly are depressed! I can read that in your post. And when you're depressed, it's difficult to get decent sleep. You need help with that.

You have your hands full, my dear friend. Do you have any friends who could care for your husband for a day, so that you could have some free time? Or does your insurance cover a nurse for a day once in awhile, so that you can get out? Or even so you can SLEEP? Some insurances DO cover nursing care for short periods, for respite for the care-giver. You might look into it.

I wish you the very best, Muppy. Please let us know what happens, will you? Or you could private message me but I'd like to know. God bless you and please take care. Hugs, Lee

I agree with everything leed said. U r a strong person, Im so sorry about your boys, what pain u have gone through.

sometimes, I think that in certain situations, it can be the other way around. maybe by going through the motions and just forcing yourself to do things, it will improve your mood. that was my tactic for getting out of some deep depression...