[dolphinlover8]

I have been having a hard time dealing with everything lately. My dad is depressed and it has really gotten to me. I want to help him but there isn't much i can do. I just want to see him happy again. I don't like living with my moms boyfriend most of the time. He just bothers me sometimes and I end up taking the anger out on my mom. I don't mean to and it causes us to fight. I am dealing with erotic transference to my therapist who moved away last year and it still hurts me a lot. I also have very little friends and have been feelings lonely lately. It's hard for me to make friends because I am so shy. I am going back to school in September and I am really nervous about it. I have a lot of anxiety and for the past couple weeks I have been really nervous about school even though its not until September. I just don't know how to handle everything anymore.

[gayleggg]

Sorry your dad is depressed. The best thing you can do for him is to be there for him and sometimes that means just sitting with him and being there.
As far as you mom goes try to remember she's not the one irritating you. Try talking to her about it in a calm manner if at all possible about how you feel when her bf picks on you. School can be very anxiety prevoking. Do you have any friends from last year to help ease going back? Keep in touch with the friends you have and maybe that will ease the anxiety. Do you see a counselor? Maybe it would be a good idea if you don't. They could help teach you coping skills for you anxiety.
Good luck
Gayle

I am sorry that things are so difficult right now - it sounds like a lot is going on. I bought a book called In Session from Amazon online and it is about females and transference with their therapists. It was helpful for me and perhaps it might bring comfort to you. No other words of wisdom but wanted to let you know you have my support! x

[dolphinlover8]

Thanks! About trying to talk to my mom honestly I'm kinda scared to even have a conversation about her boyfriend with her. I feel like he is sometimes more important to her than I am.
I do have a couple of friends from last year but they aren't answering my texts so I kinda lost them as friends in a way and I haven't seen them since the very beginning of summer too.
I do see a counselor but I don't think she specializes in anxiety. I have tried talking to her about anxiety before and she just goes right over that and talks about something else. That is the one thing that was very helpful with my old therapist because that's basically all we would talk about. I wish I could have that back but he moved.
Thanks for mentioning the book. I will have to look into it.