Under Pressure

So, I made an appointment for today with my family doctor. I am scared. I have so much going on. My husband works out of town this time of year and is about to be gone for 8 weeks. I live next door to my parents. Both of which have health issues, serious ones. I am 34 years old. I am the youngest of 4. It seems all the responsibility for my parents care has been placed on me and my family. My husband and I are taking care of 2 houses, 2 teenaged daughters, he works full time, I work part time. My children also help greatly with my parents and usually stay with them anytime there is no school. One of my brothers has Chrone's Disease. My other brother has recently been diagnosed with a progressive form of MS. My sister is great but she lives in a child's way. She sees everything so much differently from her childlike eyes.

I don't feel that I can emotionally handle everything without my husband while he has gone. I have been very irritated lately with everything. My youngest child told me to stop making a mountain out of a mole hill. Great assessment from a 13 year old girl, by the way.

I am feeling extremely nervous about my appointment today and I don't know if I will actually even go or not at this moment. I don't think there is any hope for me getting better. I have been down this road so many times and I am just tired of fighting with my emotions

Is anyone out there??? Does anyone care??

hi, I hope you are able to go to your appointment and that your doctor is able to provide either help or suggestions for help. That's a lot you are trying to handle and a difficult situation with your parents from the sound of the little you shared

I care! I only have a to offer right now...

I'm sorry you have so much you are dealing with. :/ No one can handle the whole world on their shoulders and I think going to your doctor is a big and good step. Sometimes we need a little help to get it all done.You sound like a very capable woman and I believe you can do it. You may just need a little nudge

thank you for that....means a lot!!!

I too am sorry you are going through so much at the moment - It really does feel as if you have your hands full and you sound like me when you say your emotions get in the way - they can be so powerful - both the good and the bad - but when bad you feel so dictated by them and lose control of those all too important issues - they are literally crippling sometimes. My advice would be to try somehow to drag yourself to the Therapist - it may just help you feel a little stronger afterwards - Good luck