[henrydavidtherobot]

I'm constantly alone or working. I love my alone time, but I hate not relaxing or seeing my friends. I'm too busy to change this right now.

I'm happier being single than most people are. But I am human and it does get to me sometimes. Everyone around me, save for two other INFJ bi polar people that I know, are in relationships. Everything I've had since I've moved to a college town has ended with someone choosing some one else over me, even though they were really into me. I'm feeling really bothered by this.

I love my friends, but I have few people that I can be completely me around. I treasure these people, but I'm in college and will not meet as many people as often ever again.

I feel like I'm aging and losing my looks. I feel like no one will like me if I do.

I'm moving to the Middle East after graduation. I feel like though its my dream, that I will be very lonely.

I don't know why its so much harder for me to be liked and be happy than it is for others. I'm pretty, nice, smart, caring, understanding, interested in lots of things, passionate, and an artist. I am everything that a desirable person should be, so what's the deal.

I'm begining to despise myself again. I feel like I'm avoiding people just to avoid being rejected, even though most people seem to like me in a non romantic since.

What's a girl to do? I feel 40 Am I that hard to love?

[brackenbeard]

henrydavidthoreaubot...

I have some of the same feelings...

I too wonder when I'm ever going to meet someone. it seems never to come soon enough, but patience certainly helps. here are some quotes i've compiled on patience:

"The keys to patience are acceptance and faith. Accept things as they are, and look realistically at the world around you. Have faith in yourself and in the direction you have chosen."

"How poor are they that have not patience! What wound did ever heal but by degrees?"

"It is easier to find men who will volunteer to die, than to find those who are willing to endure pain with patience."

"Have patience with all things, But, first of all with yourself."

"Endurance is nobler than strength, and patience than beauty."

"Endurance is patience concentrated"

“The strongest of all warriors are these two — Time and Patience.”

When you say "alone", are you talking about loneliness with regard to being out of a relationship, or the fact that no ones around, or both?

It sounds maybe like self esteem is in the gutter from these a-holes choosing someone over you. well, if you're a catch then it's there loss. they can't be with you, and they lost.

[possum220]

Life is all about change. Like the tides of the sea. Nothing ever stays the same. If you can't be yourself around people then they weren't the the right one.

Comparing your life to others is a trap. You will never win. None of us can know what others lives are really like. Follow you passion. Love yourself. When you love yourself life wont be so lonely.

When you are engrossed in your passions you may just find some-one who can appreciate you for who you really are.

[henrydavidtherobot]

Bracken, you’re right about patience. I guess I’m not sure what I am supposed to be patient for. I told myself that everything would be better after I moved to my new city. Only some things are. I studied abroad this summer, and though it was fun, it wasn’t as awesome as I expected, which makes me worry about my life next year in the UAE. In other words, what am I waiting for? I think that I just don’t belong anywhere.

When I speak of being alone, I’m mostly speaking about people not being around or that the people around don’t make me happy. I often wonder if I was in a relationship, would I feel better about a lack of understanding from others? But I’d always rather be alone than with someone who does not interest me or who treats me poorly. I can’t deal with college aged romance drama. If I’m going to be in a relationship, it will be an adult one.

Who’s self esteem? I typically pretty good self esteem when I am seeing someone. Don’t get me wrong, I totally agree that its their loss, but I am beginning to feel that I like so few people that everyone I end up liking will not like me or treat me poorly and that I just am going to be single for a long time, or maybe forever. At least there are sperm banks.

Possum, I agree with you, but I’m beginning to think that I’m just not suited for humanity. I have a handful of great people who I am close to, so maybe that is just how my life will look: alone most of the time, but seeing a few people one on one sometimes. I am completely engrossed in my passions. I’m just worried because I’ve seriously been avoiding all of the things that are social that I used to enjoy because I go out and see everyone so happy and getting along so well and it depresses me that I can’t access that.