[sweetmadness]

I'm really depressed and I'm tired of it. I try to do so much and it always ends up a disaster. I tried to go to college and I kept getting so bored and frustrated. I had such bad anxiety that I stopped going. I'm ending all my friendships because everyone just ends up being mean or down, or doing drugs, or beating down my self esteem. My boyfriend is hypersexual. I love my life. Don't get me wrong I'm scared to say I need a vacation because last time my dad was on vacation he found out his brother was sick, and he had to leave and rush to his side to say goodbye. I took a sleeping pill and it made me so loopy that I feel like I made everyone more upset at the funeral. I couldn't hold it together. I attempted suicide after my "recently deceased" uncle made me promise not to overdose, because I was having an imaginary conversation with him. And the very word triggered me so much I did it. I'm over that now. I want off my medication because it's making me worse and no one pays enough attention to listen to my needs. Or they're just listening to other people and not me. My mom lied to get me hospitalized when I was a little manic due to trying to come off of Abilify, and my parents were so controlling that every attempt to control me backfired on them 10x worse. It wasn't fair. I shouldn't have been told at fifteen years old that I was a chronic schizophrenic I mean like wtf? How could u know that early? what kind of system is that when u break down due to family issues and bullying in hs and they lock u up and diagnose u with schizophrenia?

[gayleggg]

Are you under a doctor's care? Is he helping you get off your meds? It is not advisable to get off meds without a doctor monitoring your progress.

[sweetmadness]

I'm supposed to be switching to Latuda this week. After a week off Abilify I'm ok but a bit depressed. I started my first dose of Latuda hopefully it will help me.

[vans1974]

Originally Posted by sweetmadness

I'm supposed to be switching to Latuda this week. After a week off Abilify I'm ok but a bit depressed. I started my first dose of Latuda hopefully it will help me.

Sorry to hear your'e stuggling!! I LOVE Latuda, it's been a miracle drug for my bipolar depression! It only helped though at 120mg! I'm also taking Lexapro and Lamictal for my bipolar depression and mixed episodes. Best of luck and hope you feel better.

[likewater]

((((Sweetmadness)))) you are dealing with some serious s**** . I was dxed shizophrenic and then layer dxed something else. I really don't care what i'm labeled. For example you can put a salsa label
on peanut butter and it's still peanut butter. If some idiot wants to call it salsa that's their hoicee, but it will never taste like salsa be the right color or anything like that, maybe it just has the same colpr lid and the same sized jar. Obviously, and ultimately you do want the correct label as if yoou are peanit butter and they keep trying to pair you with tortilla chips, it's not going to work well. Tje best pdocs, and Ts listen rather than just giving diagnostic tests.

But i digress. The main most important thing is this: YOU. YOU matter. You are a significant part pf our universe. You belong. You are loved. You are needed. You will be ok. Angels surround you. Sending you good vibes.

[sweetmadness]

Here's some good news! Latuda after a few days, no serious side effects and it's working really well for my depression symptoms. I'm also sleeping better. I haven't had any psychosis either. I feel much more relaxed, and I feel a bit more like I can be myself again. It's early right now because I fell asleep at 10 and slept through the whole night. I'm also really hopeful I'll lose weight on it, because I haven't felt very hungry and I'm more full after I eat food now. Abilify killed my sense of hunger but it also made it so I couldn't tell when I was full. My dad bought a treadmill so I'm going to start exercising in the morning, and my thoughts are slow, not in a bad way, just not overwhelming me or stressing me out. Also the akathasia is gone. The major thing is that the depression is going away and I can already tell it's going to work for that. I'm still at 20 mgs. I do experience nausea, though it's tolerable.

I'm so happy I hope this really works in the long-run.