[JorDonniefan]

Has anyone else ever felt that they were going to get in trouble
if they didn't do what people asked them to? Like if someone tells
you its not a good idea to do something and a person just does it anyway.

[Beau_Duc]

I dont know if I understand your example perfectly, but when I have anxiety attacks, I get a very oppresive feeling that I will get in trouble because of EVERYTHING, like I feel like Im gunna walk into work and be fired, or all my family will disown me all of a sudden, or Ill get arrested and put away in prison for no reason. I know this is all ridiculous, and would never happen, (i hope) but I do feel that way sometimes, and nothing can make it stop. Usually lasts a week or two when I get like that....

[JorDonniefan]

I wonder what it is called to be afraid that a person is going to be in trouble or disappoint people? I tried googling it but came up with nothing.

I have great difficulty doing opposite of what I'm told. I was raised very strict and took everything to heart. If there are rules, I follow them. I know that feeling of internal unease of "I'm going to get in trouble" and making sure I'm doing everything right. I don't know what It is called. I thought my therapist would help me with it, but instead she has taught me to use it to my advantage.

I have bipolar and she thinks this trait is needed for control during hypomania and mania and she is right. She gives me rules and I can't break them. It has been frustrating, but kept me safer.

There's an old Arab saying: The dogs bark but the caravan passes on. There is some wisdom there that's helped me at times.

[June55]

Originally Posted by JorDonniefan

I wonder what it is called to be afraid that a person is going to be in trouble or disappoint people? I tried googling it but came up with nothing.

perfection?
fear of failure?

[JorDonniefan]

Originally Posted by June55

perfection?
fear of failure?

Both for me.

[Beau_Duc]

I am always told by the few PPL who I turn to for support, that I should "Dont care what others think" but that is impossible. I DO CARE.... I cant help it, wish I could. I wish I could tell you why, as mean as other people are to me (i have a very small support group of friends and family, but the rest of the world uses me as a floor mat) that I care what they think, but I do.....

[JorDonniefan]

Other people do not believe me that I think my moodiness is much more than just anger. I have always had terrible anger in the past. I do care what other people think. I am trying to ignore my moodiness and go on thinking that this is all anger built up inside me all these years.

[reesecups]

Originally Posted by JorDonniefan

I wonder what it is called to be afraid that a person is going to be in trouble or disappoint people? I tried googling it but came up with nothing.

Maybe, it's similar to emotional hypersensitivity. Sounds similar to what I have experienced. The threads about it are in this area. Yes, if I like or respect someone as an authority figure, it can really upset me if I do or plan to do something that will upset them. At this point I'm actually struggling with that. RE: how the group therps and my doctor will treat me now that I've decided on my own to stop my AD. They found out last Thursday and it MAY be paranoia, but I feel like one therp who I really admire seems 'disappointed in me'? Maybe I'm just reflecting, I don't know. Is it going to make me stop titrating off? This time, no. But in the past it probably would just so I would be approved of again. I really hope she isn't upset with me. But I guess I'll deal with that as it comes. Usually it has always lead to SI, but I'm really hoping that I'm able to cope this time.

[cool09]

I'm BP and disabled and reclusive. I don't bother anyone but I get these feelings that neighbors, landlord, people I run into, etc. are angry with me because I don't pull my weight socially. I've found out that if people can't figure you out or you don't meet their expectations they turn to condemnation. So much for spirituality/religion that people claim to practice.

[reesecups]

Originally Posted by cool09

I'm BP and disabled and reclusive. I don't bother anyone but I get these feelings that neighbors, landlord, people I run into, etc. are angry with me because I don't pull my weight socially. I've found out that if people can't figure you out or you don't meet their expectations they turn to condemnation. So much for spirituality/religion that people claim to practice.

I know this is easier said than done. I too find myself feeling shame about being disabled from a mental illness. But you cannot change what people think. If they are saying something to you, maybe you can try to educate them or try not to let it get to you. Also, can you be projecting your feelings about your illness onto others? Please don't take of fence at my question. These are just things I've had to think about myself. Take care.