catalyst

I am so down and depressed. I just never knew there is
so much evil and cold heartedness out there. I guess I
live in my "own" world; under a rock. I feel like actually
crying today. I cried a little last nite, but that didn't seem
to be enough. I wish I had motivation, but honestly, I
haven't had that in mos. I need to be "there" for my son,
whatever that part of consists of. I hope I snap out of
this, but I doubt it, at least not today. I am hurting
so bad emotionally. I feel betrayed, by everyone and used.
I have racing thoughts, cannot stop them. I just want to
die. I feel like somebody just buried me.

I'm sorry you are feeling so badly. There is more evil and cold heartedness than I ever thought, too. I grew up in a very sheltered town and family. I was in for a rude awakening when I grew up. Now I'm 61 and am still surprised by people hurting each other so much.

I hope you can get past being betrayed and used. It only saps your strength. I hope the racing thoughts stop. I know how bad those can get. You do have a son that needs you and that should be enough to keep you going. I know even now my daughter is the only thing that keeps me going.

I hope you feel better soon.

thank u. that is very true.