Today has sucked in more ways than I thought possible.
Among other fun-filled events:
I told a doctor that I am experiencing pain at a level I can not consistently tolerate without either going insane or wanting to harm myself or BOTH, and instead of helping me seek a solution- which is in her power, being to aid me in getting emergency care- she offered vicodin... then tried to imply I was a drug seeker and shame me for the prescribed vicodin. Then I'm a jerk because I told her repeatedly to not even call it in as it isn't helpful, I don't like pain meds and I won't even pick it up.

I told her I couldn't eat at this point [because it is just like when I had cracked my tooth pretty much in half and exposed the raw nerve] and haven't slept. "Have you tried chewing on the other side of your mouth?"

...and it just gets better from there.

Today has been a whole lot of personal degradation and, while it is certainly not anyone else's responsibility what I am feeling at this point, I sorta kinda actually wish I was dead.

I'm not in danger, I'm not going to do anything drastic. But feeling like that is pretty terrible, and with the stress I've been experiencing over the past couple...weeks? Months? Not even sure now... it should really be no surprise that I see being dead rather than awake as a more positive state than facing all the really terrible experiences I've had today, piled on top of each other as they were.

Stuff just REALLY sucks right now, and I'm just not feeling like trying is anything worthwhile for the time being.

That is not my outlook on life, and I hate that I am not me.

[yumi]

There is no excuse for a doctor to be so dismissing. Im sorry this happened to you.

I know some of those things are still going to be present tomorrow but... this is just one day

[LaborIntensive]

Hey there Josie! This is such a shame and lousy for you. I have read many of your posts on here and your a smart cookie! That doctor should listen to when you are asking for help. I myself had this same experience a few years ago for serious knee pain. I was then sent to another doctor who was a specialist and he also offered Vicodin and said "let's just see where this goes from here." I asked for options and of course I got them which made me feel better.

It seems many docs are in the mentality of an auto mechanic and want you in and out in 5 minutes while they bill for an hour, right? That does sucks and I do not see it improving. I also was given Meloxicam for TMJ 2 years ago and shocked my doctor when I turned down some heavy pain killers she thought I should take for the first few days until the Meloxicam could do it's work.

I sure hope I could just beam some happiness your way but my horrible psychic abilities won't allow for that. Guess I just have to stick with my powerful mental ability to sleep and lay around even when I am wide awake. Yep, it's my super ability! Hang in there and try the hot/cold method for relieving pain if you can.

Originally Posted by JosieTheGirl

Today has sucked in more ways than I thought possible.
Among other fun-filled events:
I told a doctor that I am experiencing pain at a level I can not consistently tolerate without either going insane or wanting to harm myself or BOTH, and instead of helping me seek a solution- which is in her power, being to aid me in getting emergency care- she offered vicodin... then tried to imply I was a drug seeker and shame me for the prescribed vicodin. Then I'm a jerk because I told her repeatedly to not even call it in as it isn't helpful, I don't like pain meds and I won't even pick it up.

I told her I couldn't eat at this point [because it is just like when I had cracked my tooth pretty much in half and exposed the raw nerve] and haven't slept. "Have you tried chewing on the other side of your mouth?"

Josie, I am so sorry to hear about your experience with your doctor. Have you suggested that you require emergency care and refuse to take Vicodin? Your doctor was quite unprofessional.

Given your circumstances, I don't think she's in a position to force you to take painkillers. She should be obligated to help you in a way that makes you feel comfortable -- after all, your desire for emergency care seems reasonable to me.