[Mysterygirl202]

So ever since I got into college I find myself very "bouncy" with emotions.

For example:
Yesterday I woke up sad, left angry, felt depressed all morning no matter what I told myself to try to lighten it.

The afternoon I felt much better and enjoyed lisening to some music.

Then early evening I felt like the world is hopeless.

Then in the night I felt almost hyper and excited about life.

I know i've struggled with depression like issues in the past so I try my best o avoid things that would be depressing but I can't seem to just keep some sort of steadiness through out the day.

When I get all sad like yesterday morning I want to talk to people but I don't and I try to think of conversation starters but I just ended up standing in a room of about 50 people just standing there looking like a loner...

But then last night I talked to everyone.

Thoughts on how to stabilize this craziness?

[Travelinglady]

Hmm. I am wondering if you might now be getting into some Bipolar feelings. I was first diagnosed with depression and later with bipolar.

I suggest you see a doctor on campus. If you are developing these symptoms, then you need to get treatment, since it can't just be controlled by us.

But some of it could be adjusting to being in school, with having mixed feelings. However, I still think you need to see a doctor to make sure. Okay?

[Mysterygirl202]

Originally Posted by Travelinglady

Hmm. I am wondering if you might now be getting into some Bipolar feelings. I was first diagnosed with depression and later with bipolar.

I suggest you see a doctor on campus. If you are developing these symptoms, then you need to get treatment, since it can't just be controlled by us.

But some of it could be adjusting to being in school, with having mixed feelings. However, I still think you need to see a doctor to make sure. Okay?

I dunno.. That seems a bit scary to me.. I really... I thought bipolar was only when your happy one week and not the next? Not all in one day? Sorry I don' know a lot...

I have a counselor form my church I met with for two years about some of my old habits... but she isn't a psychologist so I'm not sure she would know.. i'll talk to her and see..

That's a scary thought to me..

It might just be because i've been really lonely this year and having a hard time dealing... but I'm trying to make the best of it.

Originally Posted by Mysterygirl202

I dunno.. That seems a bit scary to me.. I really... I thought bipolar was only when your happy one week and not the next? Not all in one day? Sorry I don' know a lot...

I have a counselor form my church I met with for two years about some of my old habits... but she isn't a psychologist so I'm not sure she would know.. i'll talk to her and see..

That's a scary thought to me..

It might just be because i've been really lonely this year and having a hard time dealing... but I'm trying to make the best of it.

Just to second that recommendation: I understand it's scary since you don't know what to expect. That's a normal feeling. When I went away for college I experienced the same thing; about a month in saw a counselor & came back with multiple diagnoses. Continued until I saw an outside therapist 3 months later who confirmed I was depressed. That diagnosis has since changed but what you said sounded familiar to me. You could really benefit from going. It's a huge relief to know what's going on & get on track to feeling better. <3

[Travelinglady]

Sorry, dear one. I didn't mean to scare you. I have Bipolar, and it's not what I would wish on anyone, but I am doing well right now.

I have literally been laughing one minute and wishing I were dead the next. Emotions can change very quickly with those of us who are rapid cyclers.

Please don't worry about the worst case scenario, which this diagnosis might be. But since you are concerned, seeing a therapist is the best way to know--and also to have someone to help you adjust to school, if that's all it is. Okay?

There are likely folks on your campus who help students along this line.

[Mysterygirl202]

Originally Posted by herpoorsoul

Just to second that recommendation: I understand it's scary since you don't know what to expect. That's a normal feeling. When I went away for college I experienced the same thing; about a month in saw a counselor & came back with multiple diagnoses. Continued until I saw an outside therapist 3 months later who confirmed I was depressed. That diagnosis has since changed but what you said sounded familiar to me. You could really benefit from going. It's a huge relief to know what's going on & get on track to feeling better. <3

Thanks I appreciate it. I think i'm ok. I'm feeling much better today. I didn't really feel depressed at all.

[Mysterygirl202]

Originally Posted by Travelinglady

Sorry, dear one. I didn't mean to scare you. I have Bipolar, and it's not what I would wish on anyone, but I am doing well right now.

I have literally been laughing one minute and wishing I were dead the next. Emotions can change very quickly with those of us who are rapid cyclers.

Please don't worry about the worst case scenario, which this diagnosis might be. But since you are concerned, seeing a therapist is the best way to know--and also to have someone to help you adjust to school, if that's all it is. Okay?

There are likely folks on your campus who help students along this line.

Thanks yeah my campus offers 3 free sessions.. but thats seems too weird.. I wouldn' want to tell my family or friends and going behind their back would feel strange..

I think i'm ok though. Appreciate it!

Originally Posted by Mysterygirl202

Thanks yeah my campus offers 3 free sessions.. but thats seems too weird.. I wouldn' want to tell my family or friends and going behind their back would feel strange..

I think i'm ok though. Appreciate it!

I respect your decision & am glad to hear you're doing fine. Just wanted to let you know if you're ever interested, the school counseling centers usually have policies on privacy like keeping their records separate from academic records & employees outside of the center not being allowed to access them. Only certain people within the center can see them. They're also legally bound by HIPAA. If you ever want to go that route in the future, pay close attention to their privacy policies.

Take care

[Travelinglady]

I, too, respect your decision, but I would not feel bad about going to see a counselor and not telling my family or friends. The three sessions are probably to give students support. Sounds like a good deal to me!

If you are 18 or older, then you are considered an adult. Doctors/therapists are not even allowed to tell your parents or anyone else unless you give them permission! Parents are not even allowed to make appointments for you, as I found out when I tried to make an appointment for my college-aged son to see an orthopedic doctor! It's your life, and it is now your job to take care of yourself. Okay?

Please keep in touch and let us know how you are doing. We care, and we are here.

[Mysterygirl202]

Originally Posted by Travelinglady

I, too, respect your decision, but I would not feel bad about going to see a counselor and not telling my family or friends. The three sessions are probably to give students support. Sounds like a good deal to me!

If you are 18 or older, then you are considered an adult. Doctors/therapists are not even allowed to tell your parents or anyone else unless you give them permission! Parents are not even allowed to make appointments for you, as I found out when I tried to make an appointment for my college-aged son to see an orthopedic doctor! It's your life, and it is now your job to take care of yourself. Okay?

Please keep in touch and let us know how you are doing. We care, and we are here.

Quick Q: Bipolar isn't related to any physical symptoms like dizzy spells right?

[brainhi]

Log your emotions..time of day and mood. That could be helpful when you are talking to a counselor. My emotions vary throughout the day. Is there anything that happens, that you can remember that seems to change your mood.?

[Mysterygirl202]

Originally Posted by brainhi

Log your emotions..time of day and mood. That could be helpful when you are talking to a counselor. My emotions vary throughout the day. Is there anything that happens, that you can remember that seems to change your mood.?

When I think about work.. I feel like trapped and get anxious to go do my shift.. but it's never that bad when I'm there.. I just get so anxious leading up to it.

And certain people. Not sure what else. I'm keeping my moods logged on here.