[Melomelon]

i dont know why, but i think everything i do is wrong. i feel even more crazy when my parents put me in a clinic hostel and say it´s good for me. my friend says it too. and my crush thinks im crazy, just because im so desperate to be fun and awesome and find my awesome self back again. when i like someone, it´s immediately seen as bad behaviour because i´ve been too ´obsessed´ with people before (i was too desperate showing that i could be nice and fun) another friend said i was an asshat and she was awesome. the only thing i can do is make drama. my friend says im having self-pity. but i dont want to, but i just dont know how to get people back and like me just as before again. im having this problem for like 2,5 years. my parents think im spoiled and lazy and that´s why they sent me here. i just wanna be like before. i did so many stupid things. it doesnt help to suspress these emotions. i tried to ignore it, but i dont even know what im ignoring. i just want to tell everyone i hate them.. but i dont want to either, because it makes it worse.

[glok]

Hello, Melomelon. Have you told the people at the clinic hostel what you just told us?

What might you do to help them help you?

I wish you well.

[Bumblebuzz12]

You need to get an answer from your parents to understand there point of view then talk to them so they can understand your point of view. You say you feel like everything you do is wrong,but from I've read it doesn't seem that way. It's sounds like you based what's right and wrong from what other people say and think, not from what it truly is. Just because people say it's right or it's wrong doesn't mean it is. It's all about your intentions. If you lie to someone, but only because you wanted to protect them and that was your true intention than you were in the right.
Don't suppress or/and ignore your feelings It's not going to help your situation. Face it HEAD ON! I'm not going to lie to you it's going to be brutal but I promise you it won't be like that forever as long as you keep moving and you don't get stuck. You can't get people to like you for who you used to be because people grow and change that means you too. Find people who like you for you.
When you like someone it shouldn't be looked down on, it just means your human. It's in your DNA. I understand that when everyone around you is saying it wrong/right it will be tempting to believe it, but has it occurred to you that maybe only one person truly believes that and everybody else just jumped on board expecting to ride into a non-existent sunset and your the only one to realize that the non-existent sunset is exactly that?Non-existent.
If your feelings are becoming to much to handle and things are getting worse. See someone there's no shame in that.
Good luck I hope all goes well

[Melomelon]

Originally Posted by glok

Hello, Melomelon. Have you told the people at the clinic hostel what you just told us?

What might you do to help them help you?

I wish you well.

i don't dare to tell them anything.. i just don't know what it is, but you can always get an answer like "yeah, and that's not for why you are here. stop talking"

[Melomelon]

Originally Posted by Bumblebuzz12

You need to get an answer from your parents to understand there point of view then talk to them so they can understand your point of view. You say you feel like everything you do is wrong,but from I've read it doesn't seem that way. It's sounds like you based what's right and wrong from what other people say and think, not from what it truly is. Just because people say it's right or it's wrong doesn't mean it is. It's all about your intentions. If you lie to someone, but only because you wanted to protect them and that was your true intention than you were in the right.
Don't suppress or/and ignore your feelings It's not going to help your situation. Face it HEAD ON! I'm not going to lie to you it's going to be brutal but I promise you it won't be like that forever as long as you keep moving and you don't get stuck. You can't get people to like you for who you used to be because people grow and change that means you too. Find people who like you for you.
When you like someone it shouldn't be looked down on, it just means your human. It's in your DNA. I understand that when everyone around you is saying it wrong/right it will be tempting to believe it, but has it occurred to you that maybe only one person truly believes that and everybody else just jumped on board expecting to ride into a non-existent sunset and your the only one to realize that the non-existent sunset is exactly that?Non-existent.
If your feelings are becoming to much to handle and things are getting worse. See someone there's no shame in that.
Good luck I hope all goes well

my intentions with that guy were to gain acceptance, i told him i hated him many times, and overloaded him with disorders which might be me, so he would understand that i didn't mean it like that. for the rest i've spammed him many times, and when he was being rude i said it was cute to hope he would stop getting mad. i can't take people critizing me mostly. and he didnt, but even if he didnt i still find a way to see he did. now im seeing positive in stuff, but people hate me already so it has no use.

[Bumblebuzz12]

Have you considered that maybe your over exaggerating and people don't hate you they are just uncomfortable around you and because their uncomfortable they tend to avoid the situation and that's normal for us humans.
You can't keep running after some guy or anybody really to gain acceptance. Once you accept yourself getting acceptance from others won't matter anymore.
Remember confidence is attractive, once you love yourself it'll be easier to have other people love you.

[Melomelon]

Originally Posted by Bumblebuzz12

Have you considered that maybe your over exaggerating and people don't hate you they are just uncomfortable around you and because their uncomfortable they tend to avoid the situation and that's normal for us humans.
You can't keep running after some guy or anybody really to gain acceptance. Once you accept yourself getting acceptance from others won't matter anymore.
Remember confidence is attractive, once you love yourself it'll be easier to have other people love you.

but i have no idea how to love myself and how to get more confident.

[Sleepyjazz]

Hi there, it;s easy for others to say don't try so hard, when that's your nature,

I think it's more about wanting people and those you love/like to understand you,

Sadly when you are like this and not really understanding yourself, others around you will not understand either, so a problem arises here, that what help you need is not always what other suggest, even the professionals,
Getting to know yourself and understand yourself is a long process and we all fall down sometimes, and always for a reason.
Feeling alone is natural when no one understand, but this is something to learn, enjoying your own company while you heal, which means doing something for yourself

I don't know how old you are, if you are still at School or Young, then i think finding an art of some kind, I use my guitar, put my headphones on, turn up the distortion and let fly, maybe you can paint, and when you feel frustrated, throw the paint at the canvas, hell, people have made money out of that.

But the best thing is to do something for tomorrow, now, just try new things until you find what you have a talent for. that will take some of the edge off and with every great effort, there will be a great feeling of reward, remember those moments.

And don't suppress the emotions, the best thing, go into the bedroom, there you have a pillow to let it out on, be it anger or crying and after, you can cuddle the pillow. there is no shame in doing this, if it helps then whats wrong with it

The fact is, most of the people in the world think they're right, learn to stand in your own light and show them they're not, you are unique, so be proud of that, some of the best people are those who have struggled in themselves and suffered a lot, but better to be that than the many shallow people out there who follow each other and do as they're told and end up living their lives by the rules.

Stay positive as much as you can, write i am happy 50 times on a piece of paper if you need to, change it to i am positive or i am ...... often. when you wake up look in the mirror look yourself in the eye and say, today i am going to be calm/happy/....., don't just say it, push it out, I AM ...., and learn to meditate, every day/night, Wayne Dyer has a couple of good ones to help you in that. Good luck