Body Frustration

So, I'm feeling really frustrated at the moment. I'm just really tired of having to explain my body issues to people who don't understand. I go for advice on the internet and instead of real help on how to love myself, I get the "curvy lecture" by skinny girls who don't even know what it's like to live as a fat person. I apologize for any offense, but I am tired of telling people "I'm fat" and having them be like "Nooo, you're curvy!" as if they think that helps. I AM NOT CURVY. I barely have tits, my *** is completely flat. I don't have any feminine curves, just a lot of ugly disgusting fat rolls. Curvy and fat are two different things. If I lost weight I'd have the body of a twelve-year-old. That's how un-curvy I am. And I don't know about others, but this whole "curvy is beautiful" thing just really brings me down. It makes me feel like they're saying "It's okay to be fat and love yourself...as long as you're more curvy than fat". I know it's for a good cause. I know they mean well but I just feel like the whole thing excludes me because I'm not curvy, I'm just plain ****ing fat.

I always say I am fat too and people are really bothered by that...its like get real...im fat...quit trying to hide the fact...I hate when they say im not... I really hate going into stores and try to shop and asking if they have clothes for fat people...they get all bent out of shape...its weird......but I don't get down on my self anymore...it took me several years but I built up my self esteem by looking at my strengths...being fat just happens to be a weakness...I don't dwell on my weaknesses...I celebrate my strengths and they make me feel good. take care.

I Am Fat. I am neither excited or shamed by the fact. I was also born with 12 fingers and left-handed which is hereditary among women in my family. This does not excite or shame me either. They are incidental to who I am as a person. When people feel the need to point out I'm fat I act surprised. "When did this happen? Oh My Freakin Gawd!! Thank You For Making Me Aware!!! I promise I will be filing a complaint with management! Then I go about my life. No one can make me feel bad about my appearance.

I think it is about self-esteem and finding a comfort level in your own skin. Just because I'm fat does not mean I have to wear ugly clothes or not do things I think make me look attractive. Also in you need a quick confidence boost join some of the BBW sites on Facebook! You don't have to have an account under real name. I don't post pictures but when I see the comments men make about women who do posts it makes me feel better. If someone is the same body type as me and she gets 20 or 30 comments about how beautiful she looks I think wow.... If they think she's beautiful then I'm beautiful to!

Also check out Amanda Hackey on both Youtube and Facebook! I love her because she could give 2 f**ks about what anybody thinks of her appearance!! I will try and post a video here.

I know exactly how having body image problems feel. You feel trapped inside your own body and when you see someone better looking than you that's happy, in a relationship, etc. It makes you feel sick to your stomach, literally. I look at couples and kissing, holding hands, and my heart drops into my stomach and the bitterness and envy makes me very depressed. I'm forced to stare at something my whole life that I can never have or experience.