[brokenheartinsc]

Very briefly let me try to explain some of what I have going on:

5 months ago- my affair with my married lover was discovered by his wife. We had been together for almost 3 years. Needless to say- everything he told me- all of the plans- everything was a lie. And I have been trying to pick up the pieces and move on since then.

We live in the same small town so I do run into them from time to time. I have had basically NO contact with him since a couple of weeks after this happened.

About every three weeks or so- I feel really strange. I get really nauseous, can't concentrate, and every thought I have is of him. I feel drawn to him almost. Then if I pass him in traffic- the feeling of ache and loneliness is not there anymore and I am good until the next time it comes on.

For instance- for the last couple of days the pain has been unbearable. So last night- out of the blue I said "to him"- please stop doing this to me. You made your choice and it isn't me. Please let me go so that I can move on with my life." I felt some better.

My worry is this: # 1 that I am talking to myself #2 is it even possible to have some sort of connection with him that this could actually be from him #3- if so- how do I cut that cord?

Please help me. I am actively seeing a therepist and am on two types of depression medication. By all accounts- I am doing much better than when this first happened. And these feeling are not all the time.

I know that my life as I know it is better without him. No doubt in my mind.

Thoughts??

[kaliope]

well you are still emotionally connected to him which makes you energetically connected to him. so in a way there is a cord attacting you. I don't see anything wrong with talking to yourself. it is using more of your senses. it is making you feel better to hear it. so visualize cutting that cord as often as you need to. take care.