Making a decision to do better

Hi everybody,

I am a little improved. I wanted to share that.

I think the reason I am is that I just made a decision to be. It doesn't change everything - oh yes, I still have symptoms.

But I think I just made a decision to handle the symptoms the best I can.

I told my therapist my goal for this week is more emotional stability.

He says he will settle for some smiles. I think he is just trying not to pressure me. He rushed me a bit in therapy - I rushed me too and I think he just followed along - so its mostly my fault probably.

But this week I am slowing the pace of therapy for myself.

And I just decided I would cope better, no matter what it takes.

I am a very determined and resilient individual which is very good considering all I've been through. But I think we just have to make up our minds to do it sometimes.

Doesn't mean I'm perfect - no way! Not at all - but I am doing better at this time.

I mention I am doing better - one thing I have been doing to monitor how I'm doing is taking the mental health quizzes and just saving the scores.

I especially have been doing this with the Depression Quiz since my depression was scaring even me!

Well, my first depression quiz was 56 - which was fairly severe.

My second was 71 - was is severe

And I just took it again today and it was 32. I am pretty happy that I am doing a little better. I am doing quite a few different things to try and cope.

YAY for doing better! May the good results continue!

What sort of things have you been doing to try and cope? It would be interesting to know...

It is good to see your healing. Your score will soon be -32 !

Smile Here,

Hi. Thanks, and here are some things which have been helping me cope:

First, I was struggling with trust with my T. I starting writing affirmations like "Therapy is to help me, not to hurt me." "I trust my T." "My T. is trustworthy and safe" - and anyway, its sinking in! I am trusting him more which means therapy is better.

Second, I am doing Guided Imagery and Relaxation which is helping my anxiety (and depression, I think).

I do participate in music, so doing more of that, which is very uplifting.

And I decided to take some tests for my career in January (hard tests) so I am actively studying and keeping my brain active and busy.

And I forced myself to eat, and that is getting to be more normal again as well as decent sleep.

Oh - I'm also back to active journaling, and writing is a good tool for me.

One thing I want to add is exercise - I really need to, but just haven't been able to motivate myself yet.

Not everything is 100%, but it is much improved.
Musica91

-32 will be all right! I'll take it.

Musica91

You are doing well, I hope you feel proud for doing what you done for yourself. It certainly makes me feel Proud.