A weird feel

More like I wasn't really afraid or scared. Just numb like usual. A bit of anxiety at first but I settled down pretty quick. More like I was anxious because my mom was a wreck. I feel like a bit of it is my fault and that I could had done a bit more. Though it's weird because I feel a bit closer to her after this in a way. Like I feel we are more alike than I realized.

My sister tried to kill herself last night.

I kind of want to talk to her and tell her that I went through the same stuff. Overdosing and all that. Is it weird that I feel closer to her over something bad like this? The feel that I am not as alone as I thought. Not sure how to comfort her though. I feel like the more I open up about myself the worse I am probably making her feel. Not sure.

Does it seem like I don't care if I don't cry is what I was thinking to myself while at the hospital until 5 am. My mom cried. Her husband cried. Though I didn't cry. My other sister didn't cry either. Maybe I sort of knew it was gonna be okay? Though I couldn't give comforting words like I wanted because I suck at social stuff and tend to just *be there.*

I am so very sorry that your sister did what she did! You should know, though, that sometimes just being there is enough. You don't have to cry and you don't have to say much of anything. Just a touch of her hand or a soft "I'm here" that only she can hear is enough for her to know she is loved.
Please let us know how she is doing.

Yeah was gonna go see her at some point soon. I saw her right before she uh- but yeah I'm gonna go visit her at the inpatient place too.