When things feel too good to be true.

For a few years I was dealing with depression, low self esteem and anxiety. In the past year I've managed to deal with and move on from a lot of this, but things lately feel too good to be true. School is going well for me, I have great friends, and taking steps towards a relationship (it's kind of complicated).
I always feel that something is going to go wrong, that I'm going to loose these people, that they're going to hurt me, or that nothing is really real. I just feel like a lot of things in my life are fake, because it's going well. My self esteem varies, so some days I won't worry about this, some days I'll be so paranoid that it partially negatively effects the relationships I have with others.
With this one particular guy, I feel scared to talk to him in person because I think that I'll say something stupid or he'll think that I have too many issues and realize I'm not as great as he thinks.
I plan on talking to my school counselor in order to get help dealing with this, but I'm kind of looking for ideas that can help when I'm unable to, because I currently don't know how to deal with this.

First of all, congratulations for your improvement. It means you did a good job and that you are a strong person.
I can understand your fears to give a step backwards in your recovering.
I can tell you for sure, that you will live bad moments in the future but you won't be the same and you have learnt how to manage bad moments in the right way.
Life is this, bad and good moments.

Regarding this guy you like, avoiding him bc you could fail or you could be hurt. That sounds familiar to me.
Perhaps, you need a little moré time before going through a relationship.
Talking with the school counselor seems a good idea. I didn't push you until you'd feel you were ready though.

Good luck!

When you have a long period of bad things happening and being in a depression, it is normal that you simply cannot relax and accept that everything is ok. It is a fear inside you. It is hard to deal with that but it is not something you cannot overcome. I agree with your decision to talk to an expert who can help you.

i have been reading a book on negativity it helped alot.it was called Battlefield of the mind and talked alot about negativity, i actually got the idea to buy it from these forums. it is a christian book, but you can just take the advice without actually being any certain religion. i often feel like if things are going great, something bad or negative is about to happen. its been like that for me lately, not to jinx myself, but it is almost like the calm before the storm i feel. everything but the stupid weather is going great. hopefully things will stay calm but i am now ready to take on anything after also going through a med change. i feel great for some reason, my worst part of the day is the mornings still, that i am dealing with each day and it is getting better too. Good Luck!!!

Batlefield of mind! You are the second person who mentions this book in a short time in the forum. It has to be an inspiration.
In one of my therapy periods, I use to read lots of books to help me understand better people, myself, how to interact with others...
My idea is that anything that can give you a possitive insight, a different way to percive the reality, bc in the end we are the ones who créate reality through our perceptions and thoughts, is helpfull.