[Yismymindblank12]

****... I'm done! Living here at this apartment having my money leeched by my parents. Working at mcdonald's franchise who can't pay ****. They can lick my nuts and **** off. I hate everything they do. I don't care what they put me in the dumbest drama that I avoid 24/7, and expect me to enjoy working there.

I'm staying up all night because I am doing what I love music, I needed money to get better equipment and a car, but at the rate mcdonalds sets me, and before fedex and amazon so on with factory jobs. I end up with taxes out making not even 500 every check like I should. I pop in 60 hours, but they cut it back and my medical issues are destroying me to get ahead.

I have a neurological condition that got me terminated at my last job. I was misunderstood, and I don't ever list that service as a reference. I can go unconscious and stuff like that and it's frustrating how I live to live minimum wage and not get crap and or I go on welfare or social security with my issues. I can't afford a doctor I'm 21, can't see my not so helpful therapist. I'm forced in poverty in such a way. I don't want to live anymore. If money wasn't a problem I don't mean I want a lot of it. I just want enough to get things going comfortably, but I live in area of jobs that you have to network your *** off which I'm good at, but it leads me to dead ends or you have to work at crazy skilled jobs to get ahead.

I can't live here anymore. Seriously, college is never an option. My sister was lucky to get in there. I can't afford it, it's so ****ed up.

I seriously consider killing myself everyday from this ******** I deal with. When it comes to money. People wonder why I don't pay for anything much ever, is because I can't afford it. I don't spend my money. I should have plenty for my job/passion of music I got going. I got things going for me in that area, but I'm stuck wasting my life passing by at mcdonalds listening to bf gf trouble, people getting messed up at my work with that their life ended because they can't get 5 more french fries in their basket. Seriously **** off and cry me a river you sorry little sod of ****.

There are people far worse than me and you and you complain over the pettiest ****.

I can't hang out with friends requires transportation or money indirectly or directly that I don't have. I can't afford anything, because one day my parents will have some financial crisis again and then they'll need all my money and I'm broke again. It's like someone get me out of here. I can't live like this. I'll go find some way to end my life because I'm sick of this.

I don't have it good. I got basic **** and that's good, but it's not mine. I want to have my own life, not living someone else's.. Seriously I don't have friends or anything to get **** going, but getting so ****ed by my own existence.

Life better work some strange magic to get me out of here or I'll just kill myself knowing this is it my whole life being a 12,000 annually minimum wage worker.

**** who wants to live like that. No one does!...

I don't care if I make someone mad on here for some odd reason, but seriously fed up. I don't ruin my life and spend my money on alcohol or drugs. I work my *** off and I get screwed.

If I could make what my parents make which isn't much more than me. I could live decently.

Regardless, If I'm 30 and I'm still in this situation. I'll definitely end my life, because no hope at that point and if my parents died. I'm ****ed, like people give me pity and let me be homeless. Not even kidding on that, their false sympathy doesn't fool me..

I didn't do anything to rub them off the wrong way. That's how people are. They don't care.

So why should I care if I live.

Ok, I'm still angry now, and I'm not going to bed, but I'd like to say how can I go up this financial ladder. I don't know how to do it by the means I have.

I'm at a do or die point now in my life with employment. If I don't get anything good in 10 years which I've been working my *** off and I need to get less days at mcdonalds to find a better job for my needs. I'm ending my life... **** living life like a sorry sob at a job. I'm running away being homeless avoiding eating and dying of starvation somewhere alone.
That was my plan.

[alienrock]

I quit working because I saw no point in sacrificing both time and my mental well being for such a petty return. When you work at that wage you are actually losing money. So there is no point in doing it. I was much happier being homeless. With such comes freedom. Freedom that very little castes within society get to experience. When you constantly work all you think about is money coming in and going out. When you stop, you are no longer burdened by it.

I'm a musician and I haven't purchased a new piece of gear in 10 years. But I've met some awesome people! I got a job in stage production mostly just carrying stuff and building stages. I've scored some free garb doing so too. I can't tell you what to do. But as a musician I would ditch that place and hit the road. That's where minstrels are meant to be.

[Yismymindblank12]

I'm getting another job soon and quitting. I'm focusing more on music.

[Hellion]

And why is it your responsibility to pay your parents way if they have a financial crisis? They are adults they can file for bankrupcy or apply for government help if they need to...sounds like you already have enough on your plate without being their keeper. If your parents needed help and you have extra money or whatever to help them out great...but beyond that its not your responsibility...it is ok to say no to giving them money. Also from the sound of it they are a bit irresponsible with money and expect you to be some kind of back up for every time they f*** up...well I think you ought to stop that, clearly you have your own expenses to worry about.

I have loaned my dad money, but he always pays me back and is ok to take no for an answer if I cant.

[divine1966]

If you live in such poverty I believe you can get a grant to attend college. Why not start community college? That's inexpensive. Or take a loan.

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[Yismymindblank12]

Originally Posted by divine1966

If you live in such poverty I believe you can get a grant to attend college. Why not start community college? That's inexpensive. Or take a loan.

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We are denied any loans. Just because despite my age and living in my own before at the time. I was a dependent according to them till I'm 23 loans requires a good and or decent credit unfortunately which we don't have.
Its all ****ed up.

[divine1966]

Originally Posted by Yismymindblank12

We are denied any loans. Just because despite my age and living in my own before at the time. I was a dependent according to them till I'm 23 loans requires a good and or decent credit unfortunately which we don't have.

Its all ****ed up.

To get financial aid for college you need NO credit at all. Did you fill out FAFSA? Why are you dependent? It isn't true you must be dependent till 23. If you work and pay your bills and live alone you could be independent at 18. Community college is inexpensive, go part time, take two classes or even one

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[Yismymindblank12]

Originally Posted by divine1966

To get financial aid for college you need NO credit at all. Did you fill out FAFSA? Why are you dependent? It isn't true you must be dependent till 23. If you work and pay your bills and live alone you could be independent at 18. Community college is inexpensive, go part time, take two classes or even one

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Yes, that's true on the community college. No I spoke with a financial advisors on that plenty of times recently.

Don't know why it's like that, but it's dumb.

We did fill out fafsa they explained it then. Afterwards. We'll try again to see if we are applicable for loans. Financial aid is granted to every student, but my parents income was too high together, they mad about a little over 40,000 a year. Currently, I make not even 5,000 a year. More like 3,000.

I was at MTSU middle state Tennessee University. UC, NKU, and the for profit schools like, Full Sail, and SAE, and I don't plan on going to a for profit school anyways.

[divine1966]

How do you live on
3000? Of course then you are dependent. Who pays your bills? You complained about your job yet you don't even work enough hours? Why don't you work?

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[cluelessgal]

U r 23?? Not being sarcastic....but hun, you have your whole life ahead of you.

First of all, congrats on NOT doing drugs or alcohol! Many in your situation would turn to life drowning habits like that.

As divine1966 suggested, you can attend community college. If you know some instrument, can you get a job as a music teacher at hobby school or pvt music tuition?

I'd also suggest a back up work plan. Arts is a pain business where even the best and most talented sometimes fail and absolute jokers make it big. Maybe you can learn some skill that will fetch you a sure job....just in case music doesnt pan out...

[Yismymindblank12]

Originally Posted by cluelessgal

U r 23?? Not being sarcastic....but hun, you have your whole life ahead of you.

First of all, congrats on NOT doing drugs or alcohol! Many in your situation would turn to life drowning habits like that.

As divine1966 suggested, you can attend community college. If you know some instrument, can you get a job as a music teacher at hobby school or pvt music tuition?

I'd also suggest a back up work plan. Arts is a pain business where even the best and most talented sometimes fail and absolute jokers make it big. Maybe you can learn some skill that will fetch you a sure job....just in case music doesnt pan out...

I just turned 21 in January. I have a couple back up skill plans. Like producing in a studio for other artists ghost producing and or sound design in criminal cases and investigations for court hearings. Radio, televion series sound design movies video games. So on.
And thank you for that.
That's just music related stuff alone. And maybe idk. I've checked qualifications for some things. I plan on if anything be a professor at a renowned college in my field of practice. That be pretty sweet too.