Not used of being alone

I have never have had productive time alone. Growing up I wasn't worried about making the right friends or hanging around the right people nor did I care aboutmyself enough to get into something productive, like maybe something that I could be proud of today. Now that i am older I am finding it really hard to enjoy being alone. I am getting piano which I love and hope to play awesome one day, that really helps me . When I am done reading a book or playing the piano and I am alone all I do is cry I am so sick of crying and feeling sorry for myself .
This personality in me is not helping me in anyway to make new friends . All I do is think about the negative things that have happen to me instead of enjoying whats right in front of me . I hope to grow out of this .

I'm so you are going through such a struggle. I think that being alone takes practice. I grew up as an only child and was forced to learn to entertain myself. It sounds like you are trying to entertain yourself and that reading or playing the piano helps. Maybe you could take up journalling and start a gratitude journal. They say that helps us focus on the positive and leads to a happier life.

Yeah,been there etc.Here's an idea,try the following
site,they are in every city/town in the world and you
may see group activity that you'd like:meetup.com
Meanwhile,have compassion for dear self.
Courage,
BLUEDOVE

Get some excercise too. Walk in the park or some thing and get out of the house once a day. Develop a good sense of self as well.

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