I've been so emotional lately (2 months)

Hi All,

I'm writing because I've been so emotional lately. I got diagnosed with bipolar NOS in November 2014 and I remember how confident I felt when I was manic. I was determined that I wouldn't let the diagnosis get me down and now I'm in the opposite place. My husband is leaving me because he doesn't want to deal with the bipolar thing. This is breaking my heart and I have been struggling so bad for the last two months since he told me he "realized" he doesn't want to be with me anymore. We were married for 3 months before I had a psychotic break. I'm mad at the world right now. I'm unemployed, living with my mom at age 37 and newly diagnosed and on the verge of a divorce. I feel like a complete failure and I cry every day. Sometimes I cry as soon as I wake up in the morning. Has anyone been through losing there partner because of their illness? Or had to move home because of lack of resources? Am I the only one in the world who is going through such a terrible time? I feel like it sometimes.

Hi sheisalive. Welcome to Psych Central. I am so sorry you are suffering from depression and bipolar. It is a shame when relationships break up but it is also a sign that the other person is totally unequiped to deal with the challenges of mental illness. You are not a failure. They are not strong enough to hang in there.

Moving home is fine. You are lucky to have a nurturing parent. People here at PC may also have a therapist to talk things out and a psychiatrist or psych doc to diagnose and prescribe meds to help balance things out.

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Thanks CANDC! It helps to hear your perspective. I am lucky to have a parent that is here for me and I am feeling a little better today. I think all of this is just a setback and I have to get back on my feet somehow. One day at a time.

sheisalive sometime a new day presents a new perspective. That is why I like to tell people to get through today and see what tomorrow brings.

You are not alone.

I know it feels like it some days.

I feel like I'm the only one in the world going through my situation. Ive lost the love of my life. Im living at home. Though only for another 2 months before university (which ill be attending at the age of 32 which is itself scary).

But none of us are alone. We're all going through different things but the one thing we have in common is we're all going through something.

Your story sounds like mine. I'm trying to go back to school at age 37 and I think I may go work for Starbucks to feed myself. I also lost my love and am living at home. I'm trying not to feel like a failure.