[Steiner of Thule]

Yeah that's me. An outcast everywhere I go. No matter how hard I try I get nowhere. Perhaps this was where I belonged from start. I'm gonna be fired soon I'm guessing and my school work is starting to slack and fail.

Ah, what is the point. This is all pointless. It's the blind leading the blind. I try the meds and things get better and now things are worse. The more help I seek the worse I get. My mind tells me they are deceiving me. Everyone is deceiving. Liars. Over-exaggerating themselves all the time. Their emotions are fake and they try to use them as tools to manipulate.

"Killing yourself is a permanent solution to a temporary problem." That is what the counselor I saw yesterday told me. Well. When does it drift from being a temporary problem to a permanent problem. A never ending problem.

My safety blankets pulled out from under me and things constantly taken away one by one.

Head is so dark lately.

[ManOfConstantSorrow]

Sorry you are having a hard time, SoT. About this; My mind tells me they are deceiving me. Everyone is deceiving. Liars. Over-exaggerating themselves all the time. Their emotions are fake and they try to use them as tools to manipulate. Do you have any real evidence that people are deceiving you?

[Dog on a Tree]

Sorry to hear about what your going through. Perhaps it's just your mind over-reacting to things? or jumping to conclusions without any evidence to back it up?

[avlady]

i am also sorry for your situation. your self esteem needs to be worked on too. trying school again sounds like a good idea too, it may boost your outlook, good luck

[Thunder Bow]

...."My safety blankets pulled out from under me and things constantly taken away one by one".....

Your Therapy seems to be working for you! Stay with it, with full determination to heal.

[Steiner of Thule]

Originally Posted by ManOfConstantSorrow

Sorry you are having a hard time, SoT. About this; My mind tells me they are deceiving me. Everyone is deceiving. Liars. Over-exaggerating themselves all the time. Their emotions are fake and they try to use them as tools to manipulate. Do you have any real evidence that people are deceiving you?

They prove it themselves all the time.

[Steiner of Thule]

Originally Posted by Dog on a Tree

Sorry to hear about what your going through. Perhaps it's just your mind over-reacting to things? or jumping to conclusions without any evidence to back it up?

It's not jumping to conclusions, I just always feel let down or lied to. Can't find anyone to relate to and those I do, well they don't. I keep tricking myself it seems. My emotions are an act now. Adopting a different act depending on the situation and then some can seem to tell that when I talk to them on here.

Always telling me there is a wall.

I can't bring my wall down but then why would I? Why would I want to bring my wall down. They seem to want me to but why would I. Honestly don't know what the point would be to have my wall down. Even when I think it is down it's not.

[ManOfConstantSorrow]

Originally Posted by Steiner of Thule

They prove it themselves all the time.

People all lie, even me, it is in the nature of things, and you have to make allowances that reality is embroidered, even if just a little, by everyone to make themselves look and feel better.

However that is different from telling lies which would amount to an attack on you, and might need to be understood and addressed.