[AnyoneAnywhere]

Hi.

Throughout my life I've always wanted to be a loving person who would give appreciation to others and respect them, and eventually after becoming a teen and going to highschool I began to understand that everyone I've ever met in my entire life (aside from my family members) just simply do not care nor appreciate a darn thing I've done for them.

I'm kind of different from the average teen, while they listen to their stupid music and talk about soccer all day I'd rather stay in one corner thinking about how immense the universe is, but everytime I tell anybody I get weird looks that scream "what a weirdo" from their judging eyes.

I began to hate everyone I met, I made a group of friends and I've helped every single one of them because I thought they were my friends, and they never appreciated it, did anything for me or even say "thanks" but they've surely made me want to go on a rampage (don't worry I'm nos planning on doing such thigs, but damn).

Worst of all is that I don't care about bad critisism, negative words and/or bullying because I know anyone who does those things will be hopeless in their lives, but what I CAN'T STAND is how people DARE to judge you when they have nothing to be proud of in their lives or when they're WORSE individuals than you, what is this?!?! a sick joke from God if he exists?

I currently haven't found a single person who would be interested in what I had to say or anyone who would appreciate me for inviting them over to a cool place, instead I've met people who've called me "gay" or "weirdo" for inviting them over to an expensive SPA because "it's not the usual thing to do"

I'm just gonna keep going with my life, I'm in a good path and my parents are proud of me and I will never throw my life away... but I swear sometimes I feel like just being done with it.
I hate them.

Sorry if I sounded harsh, I just needed to get that black toxic goo out of my body, and there's still a bit left anyways... lol.

[Thunder Bow]

You are a bit harsh about the reality you are facing. You are intelligent, thus simpler talk annoys you. You may be feeling depressed and lonely. Best to seek counseling. Your anger blinds you, and needs attention.

[(JD)]

I hear ya. I have learned to not do things for others expecting anything humanely nice in response. That isn't why I do it (and I suspect it isn't why you do nice things either) so it only ruins my view on life if I expect them to be, well, civil and nice back. Then, if it does occur, I'm pleasantly surprised (not very often...)

I have also found that comparing anyone and anything to another is just not good. The less and less I compare, the better life seems.

I must be who I am (and, for me, who God wants me to be) rather than trying to fit in, adjust to this person's desire or needs or that situation.... there's plenty to work on and that leaves me little time to judge others. Don't get me wrong, I've been in a very judgmental state, when I was a late teenager.... I mean, for fun I would go and sit in hotel and hospital lobbies and laugh and giggle at people's shoes squeak or hair do's...

Yes, you are angry. If you can quit expecting and focus on giving and doing as you want others to do for you, then those unexpected and surprisingly pleasant responses will come.

[KarenSue]

Wow, I've never seen so much hatred and such a narrow mind. You must be terribly young or immature. I feel sorry for you.

One does not give for the purpose of receiving something in return. One gives b/c they want to. Nothing more.

Sorry your self-esteem hinges on what others will do for you as a repayment. Many people are fundamentally good. No one has the right to judge another, ever.

You complain about others judging you, when you have set yourself on a pedestal that allows you to be the judge of others.

You haven't met many people, that is obvious. If you volunteer to visit some lonely person in a nursing home, you will see gratitude in spades. Just by listening to them, providing a little company.

Try not to be so selfish. It will be your ruin.

I truly am sorry for you.

It's simple. You're more intelligent and open minded than those who down you could ever hope to be. The fact that you want to be your own person rather than mindlessly conforming to what the norm wants and the fact that you can actually think for yourself makes you special and above many people especially at your age. Don't let anybody tell you otherwise.

You're amazing and will most likely do great things in life.

If those you call your "friends" don't appreciate you, find people who do. Open minded intellectuals such as us have trouble making friends because it is rare to find like-minded people when you're part of a subset of people that is comprised of less than 3% of humanity, but that means that the friends we have are all the more special.

Keep your chin up, don't let others drag you down to your level, and continue to want to learn, grow, and improve yourself and you will be fine

[C2015]

I am actual starting to feel the same way. I am twice your age (I'm older). I was always told treat others as you want to be treated. All people want to do is their best to upset me. I told my aunt after someone did something mean to me yesterday I was not bothering that person who tried to hurt me. I said I never bother anyone but lately all people want to do is hurt me. She said I know you don't bother anyone. I said it's getting to the point I don't want to leave my home. It seems like lately when ever I go anywhere people are cruel to me even though they don't know me. Men have said I look innocent and naive. Maybe that's why people pick on me. I look like I can't stand up for myself. The joke is on the next person that tries to hurt me. My friend is buying me pepper spray. I told him how someone recently threatened me and it was someone I don't know. My mom said people are crazy these days. That's when she told me about a customer shooting another customer at McDonald's because the line was to slow.

Originally Posted by C2015

I am actual starting to feel the same way. I am twice your age (I'm older). I was always told treat others as you want to be treated. All people want to do is their best to upset me. I told my aunt after someone did something mean to me yesterday I was not bothering that person who tried to hurt me. I said I never bother anyone but lately all people want to do is hurt me. She said I know you don't bother anyone. I said it's getting to the point I don't want to leave my home. It seems like lately when ever I go anywhere people are cruel to me even though they don't know me. Men have said I look innocent and naive. Maybe that's why people pick on me. I look like I can't stand up for myself. The joke is on the next person that tries to hurt me. My friend is buying me pepper spray. I told him how someone recently threatened me and it was someone I don't know. My mom said people are crazy these days. That's when she told me about a customer shooting another customer at McDonald's because the line was to slow.

That's why I have my own version of the golden rule that I live by. Instead of "do onto others as you would have others do onto you", I go by "do onto others as others would do onto you" meaning is somebody is a kind person, I'm generally kind back, where as if somebody is needlessly mean to people, I have no moral objections to treating them the same way.

People suck. Plain and simple. Find the rare individual who would accept you for who you are and your life is golden

[C2015]

Originally Posted by DarknessIsMyFriend

That's why I have my own version of the golden rule that I live by. Instead of "do onto others as you would have others do onto you", I go by "do onto others as others would do onto you" meaning is somebody is a kind person, I'm generally kind back, where as if somebody is needlessly mean to people, I have no moral objections to treating them the same way.

People suck. Plain and simple. Find the rare individual who would accept you for who you are and your life is golden

I am kind to people who are kind to me. But if someone is mean I do the one thing they can't stand. I simply ignore them. It's more effective ignoring them. If I am mean back then I would be bringing myself down to their level.

There is another option I haven't tried yet. My Grandmother used to say kill them with kindness. It worked for her doing that to people that were mean to her. She spoiled their fun by being nice.

[Dog on a Tree]

I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling this way and that you have been treated in such a way. Seems like there is a lot of anger in you but I hope when you do find people who accept you for who you are, then this anger will diminish/go away.
I think what you are missing are "real friends", individuals who accept you for who you are.

[Walking Man]

It helped me to let people be the way they choose. I don't mean I'm disinterested, or that I don't care, or that there isn't a right way to be. I mean that objectively they have the freedom to choose, and I give them the room to do so. If someone is mean or whatever, there's not much I can do about that. All I can do is try not to be the same way. They don't have to accept me, that's their choice. I want them to accept me, but I can't make them, and I'm ok if they don't. Rejection still hurts, but I just remind myself that it's more about them than me. I also try to remember, and this is harder, that by being mean (or just shallow) they are the ones who are really hurting. They may not know it but they are hurting themselves. (This becomes much more clear when you are a little older.)

It's understandable if you are angry or upset, but try to be accepting of them in spite of their faults. If you treat them better than they treat you you are doing the right thing. You don't have to go out of your way, let them exclude you if they want, but don't be the same way to them. Don't be a push over, but be open to other people.

I believe that God made each of us individually, that He loves us, and that we are infinitely valuable.