[jarajaramelon]

i've had several treatments for it but it didnt help. people said "do what you once loved" and i tried, but all my happiness seems to dissapear in the black hole of doom. i get hopeless because this is going on for 4 years now. i dont know what to do.

any tips to beat depression?? im taking medications, and it helps a little bit. but i still dont feel the old me again who enjoys talking to people instead of sucking the life out of them. im doing daily things like making homework, singing or drawing. sometimes i talk to people but as i said: my happiness just seems to dissapear right after it. and i get heavily hyper, and i try to prevent that. or sometimes i have the feeling people know that im so depressed, ofcourse they know because i told them, but i dont want them to think i dont like talking to them in fact i dont because it seems useless: i dont think they get happy of talking to someone depressed either.

i think i have social anxiety too, which makes it harder. but i can deal with that, if it was only social anxiety. i just want to FEEL again, instead of immediately feeling worthless when i did something "wrong" in my eyes.

I'm sorry that you are not getting relief after such a long episode of depression. I would talk to your meds provider about what you've said here to see if your medication needs to be adjusted.

Seeing a therapist can also be helpful, if you can do that.

Aside from that, it sounds like you are trying to continue with your daily life, which is good.

I suffer from depression also. It takes a long time to get out of that black hole. I try to sit outside, weather permitting, and just watch the birds, or wildlife. Or just walk in the garden and look at and smell the flowers. Working with my hands in the soil has helped me. Just being outside one with nature helps lift me. I have to force myself to do the things i once use to enjoy. Many things lost their meaning to me. But I have to keep going forward. One day the heaviness will lift and you will feel better again. And I agree with what else was posted: meds and therapist. One day at a time is all we can manage so make the most of each day that is given to you. Real friends will always be there for you, regardless of what you are going through or how you feel. Blessings.

[vital]

Originally Posted by jarajaramelon

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any tips to beat depression?? im taking medications, and it helps a little bit. but i still dont feel the old me again who enjoys talking to people instead of sucking the life out of them. ...

Hi jarajaramelon,

My tip is to try what helped Freewilled:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4715237-post156.html

see these notes

http://egg.bu.edu/~youssef/SNAP_CLUB/BA.pdf

- vital

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by jarajaramelon

i've had several treatments for it but it didnt help. people said "do what you once loved" and i tried, but all my happiness seems to dissapear in the black hole of doom. i get hopeless because this is going on for 4 years now. i dont know what to do.

any tips to beat depression?? im taking medications, and it helps a little bit. but i still dont feel the old me again who enjoys talking to people instead of sucking the life out of them. im doing daily things like making homework, singing or drawing. sometimes i talk to people but as i said: my happiness just seems to dissapear right after it. and i get heavily hyper, and i try to prevent that. or sometimes i have the feeling people know that im so depressed, ofcourse they know because i told them, but i dont want them to think i dont like talking to them in fact i dont because it seems useless: i dont think they get happy of talking to someone depressed either.

i think i have social anxiety too, which makes it harder. but i can deal with that, if it was only social anxiety. i just want to FEEL again, instead of immediately feeling worthless when i did something "wrong" in my eyes.

I agree that maybe you need to talk to your Dr about your meds. My first diagnoses was depression, and they tried treating that for years before I was finally diagnosed with bipolar/depression and anxiety. One Dr told me that the reason the antidepressants never worked was because I needed a mood stabilizer along with it. It could be that you've even been misdiagnosed and need other meds added. Whatever you do keep up the fight. Don't let this monster win. Keep looking for answers til you find what works. Good luck to you!

In that black hole too and with recent turns in my life I fear it only getting worse still. But I DID see my psychiatrist this week. The act of just talking helped, but more importantly he got a counsellor to come see me today (yes a house call!). She stayed about two hours. I think it helped because all my sadness was bottled in. Boy it's going to be hard work. I need to find some ways to get busy. Hard without much of a way to meet people. Social anxiety pretty much prevents meetup groups and lack of money prevents things like an art class.

[LifeInProgress]

Very hard work. My psychiatrist asked me at our last meeting why I had never mentioned my depression. I thought it was in my case file, and it had become so normal to me that until it reached a crisis point it didn't occur to me to mention it.

Been diagnosed for thirty years now. Had symptoms life long.

Keep working at it. Some days are better than others.

As I rearead this a question has occured to me about your medications. Are they prescribed by a family doctor or a psychiatrist?