[miss_rainy]

I'm not feeling so good today. I feel really dull, without any personality and nothing can make it better. Also, I have these impulses or urges to wanna do something bad or feel myself being drawn to sadistic like things like violence. I was reading a post about how someone had feelings about bashing someone's head in and I was really drawn to it. Not only that but I want to be violent myself; everytime someone comes close to me or talking to me I imagine violent things happening to them. It's wrong but it makes me happy or gives some kind of emotion.
I just wonder what anybody thinks of this? Should I be worried? Has this happen to anybody before?

[nvil95]

I have kinda the same feeling... It's mostly just a feeling of "anger" that lingers all day. Listening to some angry music usually helps a bit, but sometimes it makes it worse and I just get sucked into it completely.

[bebogirl16]

If you REALLY feel like you might act on these feelings then I would suggest contacting someone for help, to find out whats going on and a way to control it.

Have you tried doing yoga? I started recently and found it to be surprisingly relaxing. The deep breathing and stretching helps a lot more than you might think.
Also maybe try some slower relaxed music?

I'm not an expert on anything, just trying to give some suggestions.
I hope things get better

[miss_rainy]

Originally Posted by nvil95

I have kinda the same feeling... It's mostly just a feeling of "anger" that lingers all day. Listening to some angry music usually helps a bit, but sometimes it makes it worse and I just get sucked into it completely.

Haha! I guess that will work. Maybe some Metallica St. Anger lol. But that's true too, but I don't think I'll ever act on it. Maybe in my mind maybe

[miss_rainy]

Originally Posted by bebogirl16

If you REALLY feel like you might act on these feelings then I would suggest contacting someone for help, to find out whats going on and a way to control it.

Have you tried doing yoga? I started recently and found it to be surprisingly relaxing. The deep breathing and stretching helps a lot more than you might think.
Also maybe try some slower relaxed music?

I'm not an expert on anything, just trying to give some suggestions.
I hope things get better

Well... I was waiting to talk to my therapist but I had to reschedule, so it's gonna be even longer and because she has to fill out a form for me it might even be LONGER before I could tell her how I feel. Because, the form might take up most of the time.

I used to do yoga and I actually like it but because of the problems in my head both mental and physically, I can't seem to do it... Or attempt it. It's like you want to do something but you stuck in a can where you can't move or do anything you like because you can't focus. I tried telling people that but they don't understand. But thanks, this really helps.

[bebogirl16]

Originally Posted by miss_rainy

Well... I was waiting to talk to my therapist but I had to reschedule, so it's gonna be even longer and because she has to fill out a form for me it might even be LONGER before I could tell her how I feel. Because, the form might take up most of the time.

I used to do yoga and I actually like it but because of the problems in my head both mental and physically, I can't seem to do it... Or attempt it. It's like you want to do something but you stuck in a can where you can't move or do anything you like because you can't focus. I tried telling people that but they don't understand. But thanks, this really helps.

Ah okay, I understand that. I hope things do get better though. And keep us updated!

[YMIHere]

Originally Posted by nvil95

I have kinda the same feeling... It's mostly just a feeling of "anger" that lingers all day. Listening to some angry music usually helps a bit, but sometimes it makes it worse and I just get sucked into it completely.

THIS!!!!

This is why I happened onto PC right now. I wanted to know if anybody else ever felt this way. Angry for no reason. When you shouldn't FEEL angry. I feel like it's a reaction to feeling anxiety. I mean right now I have very little reason to feel angry and many more reasons to feel anxious.

But I was just reading something I had written months ago when I was starting therapy. What brought me there - a laundry list. One of them was the fact that when I wake up - even before my eyes open I feel angry.

I start school tomorrow. First time in 25 years. I'm not excited and I'm mad about not being excited.

And being angry is EXHAUSTING. You ever wonder what it might look like if other people could SEE how you were feeling, not by how you manifest it, but how it could look in action. You ever have one of those vacuums with the cylinder? That's what I imagine it would look like inside me on MANY days. Just all this black shyt being whipped into a frenzy. Flying all over, quickly, in circles, going nowhere. Looks pretty violent to me.