Feeling alone

After suffering some pretty difficult pains and rejections I keep putting a low level of pain inside myself. I can do this by turning pain inward or thinking painful thoughts. It sort of keeps me from thinking because it hurts so much. It really hampers my life physically and keeps me in pain that also hampers doing things or moving on. It is quite steady even though painful.

IMO, that's a very hard step to break. A habit that sticks, through thick & thin. I got into that habit when I was rather young. I've been trying, for many years, to break the habit. Some part of my brain seems to have a lot more power than my will!

Gentle hugs to you.
You do not deserve the pain.
You do not deserve the blame.
You do not deserve to be alone and miserable.

Say these words over and over again every day. please try hard!

you deserve the best and no less!!!

To inflict pain so one cannot feel it from others is really a self fulfilling prophecy in a way. It keeps one in the cycle of pain. There are better ways to distract yourself from the thought of painful things by thinking of positive or good things. We have to condition our minds to see that we are worthy to recieve positive and good things in our lives. I find if i work on my self esteem then i am not reflecting or dwelling on painful things. I hope this helps. tc

I am feeling rejected in family relations . Truth is hard to tell but finding it difficult. Why? Because it is so hard to see them. I feel rejected when I spoke about my feelings. They have hurt me very much and now I am punishing myself for even speaking or trying to deal with things .

I have this exact same problem. I especially keep remembering how my parents were criticizing and punishing me when I was younger. Most people would tune negativity out and forget about it with time and go on in their lives, but it seems that some people are more sensitive to these stuff. I totally relate.

Yes, you can distract yourself by doing something you enjoy, but once you feel rejected or criticized again or failed in something, no matter how insignificant it is, all these thoughts and feelings surface automatically again. Seeing the positive things is not easy when you are in a negative mental state.

Particularly painful today. Wanted to be able to see my granddaughter for her birthday. Well, I will get to see her early but wish getting together wasn't so hard to arrange.