[baseline]

I don't know whats going on with me. My emotions are so out of control. I am angry, scared, and sad. I have experienced loss, illness, and job stress. In the last month my coping skills have gone to ****. I am hiding out from family and friends. I have no desire to do anything and I feel physically ill and useless. I am frightened at this loss of control. I am going backward not forward despite therapy and medication and exercise. I have loving family and friends yet I don't want to share this with any of them. I can not lose control. If I fall apart I can't be put back together. Everyone will be afraid and treat me different. I should call T. I should tell doc but I am a care giver and I don't want that title taken away. It is what I am most proud of!

[Aviza]

I hope you have found some help and solstice. I know what's it's like to feel so out of control. I'm through the worst now myself, and the light shining through is wonderful.

[ablankscript]

You should tell your doc, your medications might not be right. No one can help you if they don't know, of course those who can help you like your doc and t should know. There is no shame in admitting that you are having a tough time. Responses vary, but how can those who love you understand you if you are just pretending. More than likely you aren't alone a lot of people go through depression maybe not major depression, but enough depression to know that it is a very painful ordeal. Of course the other side of the coin is that some people see depression as giving an excuse. Something in your life is causing you the strife, it is good to get help from a therapist to untangle these messes other wise we can really make a mess.

[baseline]

Originally Posted by ablankscript

You should tell your doc, your medications might not be right. No one can help you if they don't know, of course those who can help you like your doc and t should know. There is no shame in admitting that you are having a tough time. Responses vary, but how can those who love you understand you if you are just pretending. More than likely you aren't alone a lot of people go through depression maybe not major depression, but enough depression to know that it is a very painful ordeal. Of course the other side of the coin is that some people see depression as giving an excuse. Something in your life is causing you the strife, it is good to get help from a therapist to untangle these messes other wise we can really make a mess.

Thank you very much. I did call T and he was very supportive. A friend(em) told me if I want help I must be honest. I have been on a lot of meds for a new exacerbation of asthma and I stupidly forgot to take AD's for a week. The combination plus some memories and new challenges are sending me into a tail spin. I fear this loss of control. Thank you for your support.

[ShineYourLight]

very simple fix my friend. You need to build your confidence inside of you. DONT you think that if you were confident with yourself you wouldnt feel so out of wrack with emotion. Instead you could control these stupid emotions your having?

[Thunder Bow]

It is good to see that you are a proud caregiver. I think the feeling of losing control, is a result of your Therapy. You will come out of this feeling strong and proud. Keep being dedicated to your own healing.

[baseline]

I have T today. I need to be honest. It is so shameful to me to be this vulnerable. I am afraid he thinks I am too needy or that I should just hurry up and deal already. There many worse off. I thought about it all night, I hope I can say what I need to say.

[emwell]

I love you my Friend
I hope you rest. You need it.
I hope this latest illness goes quick and does not affect you too much in other ways.
I need TP bad extremely wicked bad.

[Fuzzybear]