[sinking]

My life is dominated by fear (and buried anger) and i've just realized that without them i would be nothing, so i cling onto those negative emotions to give me an identury but i could do otherwise, i'm just too scared that under all this pain and fear and anger there would be nothing left. That i am nothing. Theres nothing in me except pain, fear, anger, sadness, hurt.
Anyone like me?

[Skeezyks]

Hello sinking: The Skeezyks knows fear, anxiety & anger. They have been lifelong companions. One of my fears has concerned what would happen if all of the fear, anxiety & anger came bursting out. I fear it would be a Tsunami devastating everything in its path.

[IrisBloom]

Originally Posted by sinking

My life is dominated by fear (and buried anger) and i've just realized that without them i would be nothing, so i cling onto those negative emotions to give me an identury but i could do otherwise, i'm just too scared that under all this pain and fear and anger there would be nothing left. That i am nothing. Theres nothing in me except pain, fear, anger, sadness, hurt.
Anyone like me?

It is scary to let go of what we find familiar and comforting, even if they are not beneficial to us. I would hope that all, or some, of those can be turned around and become positive feelings of hope, forgiveness, contentment and healing. It is not easy, but it can be done. And it's done one step at a time. You seem like a passionate person. I'd be willing to bet you have positive passions inside you trying to overcome the negative ones.

[sinking]

my fear is that without my fears i am NOTHING

What evidence do you have this is true? Make a list. Now consider what evedince it isn't. Hopefully the second list is longer but there should be at least one item to cling to.

If I recall, you are IP right now. Perhaps I am incorrect. Look around. Is there anyone you can identify with. And, yes while it sounds crass, is there anyone you recognize as have a tougher time. Is it possible then to even in a small way realize that there is room in your life for letting go and finding a more positive thought? When I was in the hospital I realised my world wasn't as tough as other's. I got a sense of comfort at this and it was this sense - that things could be worse - that gave me something to work with.

[ScientiaOmnisEst]

Originally Posted by sinking

My life is dominated by fear (and buried anger) and i've just realized that without them i would be nothing, so i cling onto those negative emotions to give me an identury but i could do otherwise, i'm just too scared that under all this pain and fear and anger there would be nothing left. That i am nothing. Theres nothing in me except pain, fear, anger, sadness, hurt.
Anyone like me?

Dear god, yes. I've been ruminating about it all morning - it's a victim mentality. Without it is just a void. To never feel sadness, self-hate, anger, envy, or any of that ever again, while it would be a sign of maturity, would be so empty it's unfathomable. Like, what would I even think about if not how worthless I am, how hopeless life is, and how bad I need a magic fix? What else is there - it's like that, right?

And like rcat was saying, you/we have no right to feel pain, not when so many people have it worse. So now those feelings HAVE to go...but can they?

[Mondayschild]

Saying we shouldn't feel pain because someone has it worse is like saying we shouldn't be happy because someone has it better.

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[PianogirlPlays]

I think it is so hard to walk in the good that I can easily lose the things that are alright. There are always things that are alright. My house is good. The neighborhood I live in is good. I am blessed with good food. My troubles are all relationship based but mainly in my family. There are friends that I have that in forty five years we have never had a problem. Our family has such a history of trouble,divorce, unfaithful fathers generation after generation, angry upset hurt mothers and these things are hard to overcome. I try to be good and do right but every hurt , every attack against me just goes inward and adds to the pain. It is hard to love and hurt at the same time.