Very poor coping skills

Hello
So I've been registered here for quite some time now, but usually I don't write ***** anywhere in here due to social anxiety. Have Avoidant PD and depression.
Anyway, besides of this, I also have very maladaptive coping mechanisms. If I feel a strong emotion, the only way I am capable of discharging it is threw dissociation ("estrange" from the feeling, act like it wasn't there, kind of hard to describe), eating attacks (which worsen social anxiety due to weight) or maladaptive daydreaming.
The latter one being daydreams that can be so intense that you start acting out what you do in your daydreams by talking or moving. The daydreams can last several hours and are maybe comparable to a novel. E. g. I have certain "characters" in my daydreams that I have invented two years ago and who in my daydreams keep on experiencing adventures and stuff. I will use music to induce the dissociative trance necessary to forget about my real environment.
This daydreming thing enables me to enhance my mood for a few hours or so and prevents me from being suicidal, but it's also very addictive.
A lot of time just "disappears" threw this habit, and makes me even better able to surpress my problems and give in to my fears which prevent me from changing anything.
So... don't know, if there's anyone out who can relate to my coping methods, whould be glad to hear about. I guess there's nothing more to say. This is one of the rare occasions I'm giving in to my need to being social and communicating. Hope it'll bring some good.

Hello Nimportequoi: The Skeezyks doesn't know what he has since he's never received a diagnosis. But he is almost completely solitary. And depression would certainly be one of the elements of any diagnosis he might be given. So we probably have some things in common.

I can't say that I have any of the specific coping mechanisms you describe. However, music is certainly a big part of how I manage myself day-to-day. I listen to a lot of chant... mostly Buddhist & Hindu. And it tends to lull me into something of a trance-like state. Often, as is the case as I write this, I'm listening to chant videos on YouTube. I spend a lot of time here on PC & most of the time I'm listening to chant videos. It puts me into something of an altered state where I think my time here on PC almost becomes sort of a meditation, in-&-of itself.

Actually, what you are doing is a positive thing. All you need to do is have some of those good stories be a real goal for you in real life. Try to bring your adventures into your real life by seeking them out in real life. Find those "Characters" in real life if you can. Your day dreams are not so "maladaptive".

I can relate to the dissociation. I delete all history of the event, both physically and mentally, or burn anything that reminds me of it, and can easily forget it happened or existed. Anytime I start feeling (usually a 'missing' feeling) that way, I just disconnect myself and move away from whatever triggered it.
I can also trigger dissociation myself by zoning out and staring at someplace for a long time, or playing video games for a really long time, or certain destructive habit I'm trying really hard not to participate in. It seems like whenever I feel a strong emotion coming on I just kind of do it naturally. Sometimes I can't tell if I like or don't honestly. It's been an incredible tool in getting over a ton of people who leave me or I've left, and not dwelling too much on bad things. However, when I'm in that state nobody likes me to be around me because I'm unemotional yet depressing to be around (extremely blunt and realisitic about everything). I also seem to have a hard time processing information when I'm in that state too.
These are definitely some interesting ways to cope, but you're not alone.

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First of all, I wanna say thanks to all the people who replied to me. I often feel that every step of connection towards people will upset them, and that I will make people mad with me or something. Your answers make me feel a minimum of social connectedness and it feels so good. Thank you all.
Music will almost automatically trigger me to switch into the daydreaming state, so to say. But there was a time I tried to cease the daydreaming completely, and after months of hard trying & failing, it worked out and I was even able to listen to music without daydreaming. And even than it lifted my mood.
I guess I don't have to mention that I finally ended up daydreaming again, but even though it's maladaptive in some way, looking back to the no-daydreams phase of my life, I'm glad I have this coping skill- it's just I wish I had a little more control over it. I will do compulsive movements during daydreaming, especially rocking back and forth (sounds pretty psycho I know), and this is causing me back ache. It's not a serious medical thing or something though.
Besides of that, my daydreams are often accompanied or alternated by some kind of real intense, trance like mind wandering. During this, I often have spiritual/philosphical epiphanies or ideas. I enjoy this very much. And yes, of course I hope to make some of my dreams become true some day.
With regards to the zoning out thing, I do the staring thing as well. This happens especially during phases of heavy depression. Strangely, I sometimes stop breathing as well, and I only realise when I start feeling giddy and than I will kind of snap for fresh air. Don't know. I didn't think about that before.