I say "post" even though it's not. I just have a new normal...I will never be who I was.

That said, I am finding that I am way more emotional than I was before....I was happy, then depression left me emotionally numb...now it's just ridiculous. I'm tired of being so sad. I'm tired at crying at the drop of a hat. I'm tired of thoughts of something that happened AGES ago bringing me to tears. I'm tired of constantly feeling so very...well SAD.

Problem is that emotions are really uncontrollable. They just happen. You can't "cheer up". Or "look on the bright side". Or "be happy". You just can't because you don't have any control over it. You just don't. I do what I am supposed to. I have a good life. "Coping with Emotions" (as this part of the forum suggests) is a joke. It's impossible.

Why will this chronic sadness not give me a break?

[Thunder Bow]

There is no quick fix to your sadness. Healing will take time. I assume you are in Therapy.

[EdgyUsername]

You said it, You don't have any real tangible control over your emotions. (unless of course you are taking medication into account)

You can fool yourself into thinking you do, but in the end, you're controlled by the things that surround you and how your brain decides to interpret them.

I wake up most days feeling miserable, I can't simply will myself out of it because that would be lying to myself, and i'm not capable of lying to myself about how i'm feeling.

Some days I wake up feeling a little better, no reason, i couldn't tell you one if I tried, it's just a random spinning wheel of miserable days and once every blue moon i get a day that isn't quite as miserable.

I've tried to explain it to many people many times, and they never seem to get it, as if there should be some sort of pattern in my emotions, something that i can somehow harness and nurture so I can feel happier for longer.

My personal thoughts on the matter, Those not so miserable days, that's the last part of me that wants improvement, that actually WANTS to change, because quite frankly the rest of me has given up. and I think it's rather telling that the not so miserable days are becoming more and more spread apart as time goes on like this.

It affects me and my friends, when I'm miserable, I make them uncomfortable.
I don't want that, but honestly, I'm not sure how to escape it.

Thank you both, for acknowledging my post.

I do understand that there are things that make you happy and make you sad...I get that. I can follow that pattern and work through it or wait it out.

But, as Edgy said, a lot of the time there is no thread for me to find, therefore fix. It just happens on waking up. What does my brain do doing the night?

What a mysterious mess.

I don't think we can control our emotions to any great degree, although we can take positive steps to maximise our ability to feel better.

Coping with emotions I interpret as more 'living' with them as they are rather than changing them. So for example you feel sad, so acknowledging that, taking steps to minimise the sadness, whatever that may be in your life, but accepting that you feel this way now.

Are you certain this is post depression? Those symptoms, waking up feeling sad, feeling sad much of the time, sounds like it could be depression to me, maybe just a different phase.

Hope you will find a happier equilibrium in time

(((hugs)))

[Rabbit1256]

I have felt the same exact way you do at times. When I experience a depression episode it lasts for an extended amount of time and I cannot will myself out. For sure, on one else can will me out of it. They make all kinds of suggestions and tell me all sorts of things I should do. They simply do not and will not understand why I cannot do them. It truly is an impossible situation whether you know what you are specifically depressed about or not?

Is there something specific you feeling sad about? Or does it seem just as a blanket feeling covering you for which you cannot pin point the cause?

The only thing I have found that bring me out of a deep, long lasting, depression is Professional help and medication.

[magbotag]

Sorry to here you are so sad.I am manic depressive, the only difference between your problem and mine is.I have very very highs that can last for days just running in circles. But the come downs are very hard.I become very depressed and I feel like killing my self.because when I'm manic I can't remember what IV done during that time.and that's more depressing.I take meds just to feel a little human.I wish I could take all your sadness away.try to get a dr.that's there to help you I mean really help u.try to keep busy with anything it does not matter how you keep busy as long as you feel your really not alone.every ones problems change every day.and try to get support from people you trust.but don't take everyone's advice only the ones you really feel good about.keep your head up and don't give up.I believe in time you will get OK.

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[Fightharder]

Yes I can understand sometimes when I feeling like my life is hell ... Miserable ( even I'm healthy and with a husband a puppy both love me so much), but what happens is that maybe in some point we don't like what we do ( in my case I hate my work ) and if we don't love what we do we are miserable and make miserable the life of those ones ho live with us
Sometimes is like you are in a black hole, without any exit .... So we need to identify what bothers us and change it
If that is in the past, may be we need to forgive
Bitter feeling are poison inside of our bodies