[Chase64]

For a few years now I've been having these slight thoughts in the back of my head that's pretty self attacking. But since October of last year they are so strong that they've become uncontrollable and very bothersome especially when it happens during school. It usually didn't happen when I hung out with others but a week ago it happened at a friends house although I wasn't doing anything but drawing. No matter what I do it's just terrible and when they are too intense for me to push away I have a panic attack and start crying. It's like a second voice in my head constantly denying any positive thoughts I have for myself. Images or short scenes of me hurting myself or killing myself are usually when it gets too bad, occasionally I'll have a dream about harming myself while my family just sits and watch or encourages it. It's really distracting and sometimes I believe that second voice because I don't really have anything special going for me in life. But I still wish it'd stop.

When i am all alone and my thoughts are uncontrollable i use the step one prayer from AA and Pray I am helpless over (uncontrollable thoughts)... i pray about it and give the thoughts to God to take them away from me and give me peace. I surrender to Him what i cannot bear or handle and it helps... tc (((hugs)))

[Lazarus16]

One thing that helped me with uncontrollable thoughts was listening to music while doing other things when alone. I can't seem to have these thoughts when I do that because they get drown by the music. More sleep, vitamin D, gym or frequent physical activity, those are all things that help too. Also stay away from anything that is negative, negative people, negative environment otherwise you might become like them. It sure doesn't help.

Try to keep yourself busy. Doing nothing gives a chance to your mind to bring all these negative thoughts.