In the last two days extreme sadness and lack of motivation took over my life completely. I barely dragged myself to the store today to buy something. I haven't eaten since morning. I have no energy to do anything but to lay down on bed and surf the Internet aimlessly. I don't want to go to a psychiatrist. What else can be done beside waiting until it's gone?

[Raindropvampire]

I wish I knew. After so many years of feeling that way I just exist day to day waiting for some med or something anything to feel something other than soul crushing depression. I just power through and compartmentalize everything. I disassociate a lot to get through. I'm very sorry you are going through this and hopes it lifts soon.

[emijec]

mmm.. not sure. I always relied on medication and therapy to get me through or just medication, once I hit week 4 on meds I mustered the ability to go out in my unit's backyard area and sun myself , the week after that I took a walk at a park/lake. small goals. once I took a long shower and drove out to get a cup of coffee and called it a day. it's just hard to do so many things, so I did small things & built up to big things and i checked this and the depression forums a lot, watched TED talks about depression and other stuff, watched college lectures online, I found this website called mentalfloss and read that.

I had 0 motivation when I was depressed my small accomplishments were brushing my teeth, take shower while standing up instead of sitting down, sit up in my bed.. then I increased it to the stuff above. sometimes you have those down spells, but every day is an accomplishment in itself. is there stuff you can watch like Netflix? or Hulu or Amazon prime ?

It's not I don't have anything to watch, but it's affecting my life and my job. I'm on the verge of quitting my job. I also would like to live life. I haven't so far. Today when I went to the store, on the way I felt I didn't care if I quit my job, even if I died. I was so depressed. It's not a good sign, I guess.

[divine1966]

Why don't you want to see a professional ? Doesn't have to be a psyc doctor. Look up therapists in your area ( mental health clinics etc) and ask for an appointment. Go talk at least once. It does sound like you need help. We want to help but we can't diagnose you or even properly advice you as we do not know severity of you symptoms.

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Most of the time I'm functional. But sometimes I fall in a state I cannot do anything. Recently I was thinking about my recent attempts to socialize, and I think that what triggered this in me. I'm easily frustrated. I don't want to see a professional because I don't like the idea of someone else trying to fix me or give me some medications to fix my brain. I can do this. I've been here before. It usually goes away alone, that's why I'm trying not to make big decisions right now. I'm not interested very much about the diagnosis, I just consider the symptoms.

[Thunder Bow]

Therapists can not "fix" anyone. It is you that has to do the "fixing". The patient has to have the desire to heal. All you have to do is dedicate yourself to your own healing. All a Therapist can do is guide you.

I've been to psychiatrist before and all he was trying to do is to experiment the correct dosage with me over a period of 2-3 months with 10-15 minutes sessions every 3 weeks or so, and eventually nothing works. I have to say though it was for ADHD. But even for depression and anxiety, I'm not sure how they can guide me without medications. I've been reading CBT books, and probably they will say the same things. So, I prefer to deal with it on my own pace and choices.

[divine1966]

If depression or anxiety is severe enough then medication might be an option. I feel for you and agree that if one can they should stir away from Meds, but sometimes we got to go for extreme measures and do what works. If I feel I can't do my job and am about to quit then all bets would be off. I can't afford to quit my job. That wouldn't an option ( without trying everything possible to improve)

You can maybe try few sessions with therapist and see if if helps? Not all Ts use CBT though

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