[fijiisland]

I had all these plans of what I wanted to do today and now I am laying here crying because I have no one to do anything with. I have no friends or anyone to talk to.

I didn't take my antidepressants last night. I have been taking them for ten years and only take them now because of withdrawal. I wouldn't be able to function if I withdrew.

The reason I am in this mess is because the Zoloft numbs you to what is really happening in your life. I put up with things I shouldn't put up with. I stayed married for years while on Zoloft and as soon as I went off I filed for divorce (a good thing)

All I know is I have no one to share anything with and I am crying on a beautiful spring day because I have no one to do anything with. I hate my life.

[Skeezyks]

Hello fijiisland: I'm sorry you are crying... The Skeezyks sends warm thoughts your way with the hope that you will be able to find peace in your life...

[otherg]

Your not alone. I'm crying on a beautiful day as well.

Hi Fijiisland. Don't cry sweetheart. Do the ordinary things people do even when you are down, it makes you feel better even if you didn't want to. I was on meds. for 7 months, and went off due to weight gain and fatigue. I know how hard it is. When I would want to stay in bed for a couple days I would 'schedule' something on a to do list and make myself do the list no matter how I felt. Just getting up and doing them improved my mood. It's a battle every day and even small victories should be celebrated. Hugs and I hope everything works out for you.

[Born To Succeed]

Hi fijiisland.

I'm sorry to hear you're having such a rough go at it. I know first hand the lousy effects some drugs can have on our brains. I thought I would never get off of the Zyprexa, and it was a miserable battle to get off, but I did it with some help from a Naturopath and my psychiatrist. Together, they got me off of it because that was what I wanted for myself. Coincidentally, my marriage ended soon after that as well. Go figure!

Hang in there, please. Believe me, there is a way through it. I have been able to overcome what I used to be convinced were impossible odds, and I'm still not out of the woods. I still have a hellova ways to go. But I'm also beginning to realize just how worth it all the hard work really is.

Just believe in yourself, conquer small challenges and work your way up to bigger victories. In the meantime, by all means, let the tears roll. Just allow your emotions to express themselves in whatever way is appropriate and safe.

It's great you are here. You're in good company.

[winter4me]

I am with you today....
we will laugh some rainy day...

Tears can be a very important part of the healing process.

For me, I can't seem to get them to flow enough ...

Yet, when I do, it's so freeing somehow ... Like some of all the grief I carry from my abusive, loveless and lost childhood, adolescence and early adulthood has melted away and left a me with a sense of everything's gonna be alright ... If only for that one moment in time!



Here's hoping that you can find your tears to be healing & helpful for you as well ...

Sincerely,
Pfrog!

In my own experience when I've been depressed good things only serve as a reminder of what is missing or negative in my life.

[emijec]

it's a terrible feeling- loneliness. I know how you feel. I'm alone too. no kids, nothing. it's difficult to move forward when there is no one next you and on top you're battling depression. is there another med you can switch to?
I stopped Zoloft too but bc the side effects , bad ones , developed within days vs. weeks.

then you're plagued by thoughts of what should have been and where will I be in the future, right? will I be alone? I hate those dwelling thoughts and feelings. it would be nice to feel nothing again.

I don't know what the solution is. I try to break down my day by trying just to get through each hour but it's tough to do that when you have the huge cloud of loneliness hanging over. I pretend. pretend like things are ok .

I'm sorry that you're going through this terrible experience