[yunomi]

Recently feeling down, i feel like emotionally i've been thrown out of a moving car. I was getting better a bit for few months but life keeps testing me. I Have some troubles with work, family and someone important to me just letting me down. I have nobody to talk about this irl, yes there're few close friends but i feel like sometimes they can't relate or even care anymore. I'm just so tired of everything..

[Skeezyks]

Hello yunomi: The Skeezyks sends you his best wishes with the hope that you will be able to find deep peace within...

[Fuzzybear]

[rachel_]

I can relate. ((hugs))

If you ever want to talk, please PM me.

[loveyouhun]

Yunomi,

I can related to your problem. I'm tired and all the people in my complex is mad at me except one person. I'm tired of them running my life. They want what they want (rides, foil, cigarette, etc). when it's time I need help they don't want to help me. I'm tired of this BS too.
My family doesn't understand what I'm going through and think I'm acting, or just to get attention. It's not so.

loveyouhun

DON'T LOSE HOPE.

YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY.

YOU WILL GET BETTER.

[emijec]

I'm so there with you. that's how I feel and much more. tired of being tired. why is happiness so difficult to attain?

I hate the reminders too.

I've allowed distant friendships to grow stale and fall off completely. This from the reealization that for a while there I was so down and negative about everything. I felt self conscious about this and didn't want to burden these people any longer with my problems and negativity.

So now I have no one it seems I can talk or vent to when I really need it - except for my mood disorders group. They have been very helpful and I maintain contact with several outside of the meetings.

Does joining some sort of similar group sound feasable.

[continuosly blue]

Hi YUNOMI and all.......
I can relate to what your going thru because I've been there and am still there , for the most part. I haven't been around for a couple of months because of just that feeling. TIRED. Just stopped caring. I had an on-line "pen pal" that disappeared on me. So I just stopped coming to PC and stopped outside therapy and just went out to the store when I had too. I felt no desire to meet or talk to anyone anymore. I've been on my own , and abandoned by my family and everyone I thought cared about me.

Well what I am discovering going thru all this is ME. Who I am. For the first time in my life.
I'm starting to understand that however I may feel this moment, it will pass. And the most important thing is to not FOLLOW my thoughts of depression or anger or whatever. I've been led around all my life by someone or some thought in my head. I found out that if I just accept life on life's terms and my own feelings that I can go on even if I don't even know why ! And I'll never know why. In other words I'm not in control as much as one may think. I've surrendered to the world and to myself. My physical frailties , my mental state.

Most of the time I feel like I'm just existing because my body breathes and my heart beats . And now I just am grateful for those brief moments, or sometimes even periods of time , that I feel ALIVE ! Sorry for rambling. I just want to say that I ID with all your feelings and pain and know that someway, somehow, someday you will feel some happiness, maybe even some joy. And you will look back and be glad that you weathered the storm. The world will beat me up , that's for sure, but do I have to add to that and beat MYSELF up too ?

[emijec]

that's exactly how I feel. dead inside, tired inside and outside. hopeless. I don't know what the solution is. it feels like there's no end, no chance of happiness. what makes it worse is seeing others happy. it reminds me of what I don't have .

[continuosly blue]

Originally Posted by emijec

that's exactly how I feel. dead inside, tired inside and outside. hopeless. I don't know what the solution is. it feels like there's no end, no chance of happiness. what makes it worse is seeing others happy. it reminds me of what I don't have .

As long as your still here it's not hopeless. There is no real solution except to get through each moment and keep trying to share how your feeling with SOMEBODY ! What I find weird is how hard it seems to be to find what you need in this huge world with so many people in it. Sometimes I think life is just based on circumstance. A product of many factors. I know one thing , if I don't reach out I will rot alone in this world. And by the way, don't think that everybody else is so happy , because their not. Most people don't wear their feelings on their sleeves like we do.

Hang in there and get help.

Originally Posted by continuosly blue

As long as you're still here it's not hopeless... by the way, don't think that everybody else is so happy , because they're not. Most people don't wear their feelings on their sleeves like we do.

Wow, well said.

I try not to be bitter about what I have lost, forging ahead in my present existance. The most important thing I am doing is surrounding myself with people and doing my best to keep busy. I volunteer and am actively involved with a few organizations and my support group. The most important thing is to prevent one's self from being idle.