[lv99atheist]

I was just assaulted on the bus a couple of hours ago. I don't want to rehash the whole tale right now, but it's times like this where I realize I have no friends, no real contact with the outside world. I have tried to contact the two family members I can still talk to, but one has so far ignored me and the other is so out of touch. I have no support system at all. I feel pretty worthless and invisible all the time anyway, but when things really matter, there's nobody there. It's like I could vanish completely and nobody would miss me; nobody would care. In fact, I'm sure the few people who know of me would be glad I just went away and left them alone. I hate being any sort of burden to anyone, but it seems like I'm asking too much if I continue to draw breath. I wish I could just drop dead.

[Skeezyks]

Hello lv99atheist: I'm so sorry this has happened to you. (I have very bad memories of things that happened to me, many decades ago, on my school bus. I refuse to use public transportation. I consider it to be even more dangerous than the streets!) I would like to send some healing thoughts your way with the hope that you will be able to find deep peace within.

I'm sorry this happened to you ...

We're here, and there's also some hotlines you can call to help you process what surely must have impacted you traumatically.

As an aside, I drive a bus for our local university and rescued a jogger from a predator several months ago!

Had that cretin attacked you on my bus, I'd've stopped the bus, put it in park, pressed the 911 button and walked back there and subdued the cretin with my cane until the cops arrived!

If there's one thing I can't stand is bad people bullying good people!

Again, sorry for your experience and we are here at PC for when and if you want to talk some more.

Sincerely,
Pfrog!

[Angelique67]

Hi, I'm so sorry about whatever happened. I wanted to reply because I also have very little support. It makes life so much harder.

I hope you'll deal with what happened in a way that validates your worth, rather than worthlessness. maybe you could report what happened to the police? The police are there for us when we need them. I hope you'll report what happened.

[Nimportequoi]

I feel you. I could have written every sentence of you. Stay strong!

[1976kitchenfloor]

Originally Posted by lv99atheist

I was just assaulted on the bus a couple of hours ago. I don't want to rehash the whole tale right now, but it's times like this where I realize I have no friends, no real contact with the outside world. I have tried to contact the two family members I can still talk to, but one has so far ignored me and the other is so out of touch. I have no support system at all. I feel pretty worthless and invisible all the time anyway, but when things really matter, there's nobody there. It's like I could vanish completely and nobody would miss me; nobody would care. In fact, I'm sure the few people who know of me would be glad I just went away and left them alone. I hate being any sort of burden to anyone, but it seems like I'm asking too much if I continue to draw breath. I wish I could just drop dead.

Hello. I am so sorry this has happened to you.

It's hard to pull out of your feelings and reactions from having gone through this, and I do hope you report this assault. You have every right to be angry. You have every right to feel hurt and to feel grief for the fact you were assaulted and no one is there for you right now.

I hope you are able to ask for some help in dealing with this. ITs really terrible to feel and think that no one gives a hoot about us or what happens to us--but that is really how most of us feel in times like this. So. Hang in there and take good care of yourself. You've been though a violent serious life changing event and you need to take care to get yourself through and over this.

For me, incidents like this always make me question myself -as if I must have it coming or am somehow to blame. It also makes me wonder if the world isnt crazy and all bad. I have even had a tendency to question why I am here. What's the point and what the heck am I doing that things keep going down the toilet for me and no one seems to give a hoot? Maybe youa re also feeling some of these things. I think it comes with the territory. It's not like, "oh, whoopty do, I just got nailed on the public bus--it'sno big deal!

This is a big deal! You have been wounded by a fellow human being.

I am glad you shared this with this forum. I ahve found that it helps make things less difficult when I dont keep things bottled up. It helps to talk things out and discover that I am not alone after all. Just like for you. I want you to know you are not alone and people do care.

I send you hugs.

[Monarch Butterfly]

I'm sorry this happened to you. Nobody deserves to be assaulted. Have you thought about calling transit to report the incident and or the police?

I have no support system as well and know how it feels. You can always post on his forum your not alone, you have us

If you're in school, is there a counselor you could talk too? Or does your employer offer some type of counseling through benefits? Or any free drop in counseling where you live?