too too much, need a lot of time to cope

In the past year I've been slowly isolating myself. I'm down to spending my weekends barely doing anything at all - and then on Monday go back to work again.

On Saturday, I hide in my bed only getting up if I have to - to eat or go to an appointment that I had to do. On Sunday, I stay up most of the day, but I don't have any energy or desire to go out. I keep the windows covered. I'm in my safe cave all weekend. I barely talk to anyone at all except when I'm at work.

I've effectively isolated myself as much as possible.

However I have noticed if I take 5 days off work in a row (recently did this, although I was worried I'd stay in bed for 5 days and waste the whole vacation days off) - after the 2 days of bed and resting, I was able to come out of it a bit and did go out a bit and did do something fun, and did feel a tiny bit creative.

So, I'm thinking that I'm feeling overwhelmed and need at least 2 days to "process" what happened at my busy job during the week, and then when I'm feeling a bit rested and "grounded" that I am able to open the blinds a bit, open my heart a bit, open up to LIFE a bit and participate.

It's cool that you are realizing this about yourself, being aware of these things will help you to take good care of yourself.

Quote:"In order to love one's self,one must behave in
ways one can admire."
Courage,
BLUEDOVE

That's very likely. Or...maybe you've settled into a routine. Without work on those days off you might have replaced going to work with things you'd rather do maybe?? I know that's what I do during the summer when the kids are out of school. But I still want my weekends to rest.