[Nimitri]

I just spend 665, over half of my salary, in buying 4kg to the blind, old, annoying dog of my mother.

665

What I was going to use to pay for my medicine. What I was going to use to live this 15 days without asking money to my mom, or buying underwear, or paying for bus or so many things.

I wasted all my money because the food of this nuisance was over and now they discontinued the 2kg package. I destroyed all my budget on the first day of having it and I couldn't feel any less worthy.

My money was to help my mom in finances and yeah, not paying for this food is helping her, but I feel so... cheap. So worthless my contribution. I don't hate the dog, but it's not my dog. I don't love him. I don't like him. I feel sorry for it, I take it out to go out in the mornings, evenings and nights. I honestly can't see it as anything but a useless parasite and I think maybe I feel like it with my mother.

I'm going to ask my mom to refund me 265 because otherwise I will have no money and I just feel worthless. All my effort into this inane work. I can't stop feeling that I just threw away my money and there was nothing I could do to stop it. My mother just told me she would refund me the money, but what would be the point. What she gave me would be put to the credit card and It would be just useless money moving. Waste of time. Basically, all my plans to help my mother was to feed a nuisance that I honestly can't say I feel proud or helpful. All my plans in cinders.

I'm crying. I feel sad. I just feel plummeted and I want to kill this damn animal so much. It's not his fault. It's my brother fault for leaving him with us and it just a poor old thing, but I hate it so much right now.

I feel sick. I feel useless. I want to curl and vomit and cry and I don't know what to do.

[Skeezyks]

[Nimitri]

Wow this came out wrong. What I mean in the second paragraph was:

"I feel like this because I believe is what my mother must have felt about me with my problems."

So, I was pissed off about it but now I'm more tranquil. Calmer. I didn't hurt my dog, if you are wondering. But even right now I can say I feel fine about wasting my money with this breed. Or that, right as I think about it, after talking to my mother she is going to rewire the money I just spend tomorrow. Wow. I feel like a whiny brat right now as I'm writing.

Why did I tell her this?
How did she react about this situation?
Does she think I just complained to her right now to squeeze 665?

Gods, I just... I can't win, for what I see.

haaaaah

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by Nimitri

Wow this came out wrong. What I mean in the second paragraph was:

"I feel like this because I believe is what my mother must have felt about me with my problems."

So, I was pissed off about it but now I'm more tranquil. Calmer. I didn't hurt my dog, if you are wondering. But even right now I can say I feel fine about wasting my money with this breed. Or that, right as I think about it, after talking to my mother she is going to rewire the money I just spend tomorrow. Wow. I feel like a whiny brat right now as I'm writing.

Why did I tell her this?
How did she react about this situation?
Does she think I just complained to her right now to squeeze 665?

Gods, I just... I can't win, for what I see.

haaaaah

You have some really good insight into why you felt like crying. I think anyone might feel the same way.

[Lumphead]

Hey Nimitri,

Dogs are important, but not as important as people. speak to your mother / brother and maybe you can come up with "another plan"

We also have animals at home, and it can become very expensive if they become ill. But there has to be limits. compassion for animals has to be balanced with compassion for people.

I Don't think that you are complaining, It's a genuine concern.

[divine1966]

What dog food costs $665???? Is it in dollars? Where do you live?

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