Yeah I'd say I'm definitely coping with some emotions right now. I feel my emotions feel very urgent. Like I need to talk about them today, and be heard and given support. I feel like I'm not getting that right now. So I feel like I'm a balloon that is holding in air with no way of escape.

I just called a hotline (I'm not suicidal, just need to talk), but the line was busy. I might try back later.

I am really worried about job stuff. I don't work, want to, but can't show up. I'm planning for the future though. I want to get off disability, and make a comfortable living. I am interested in some programs at a vocational school. I'm also interested in helping people and learning ASL. I just feel really impatient. and I don't feel like I'm getting the help I need. I am getting vocational help. But I will call her tuesday.

I'm was also upset with a friend and was wondering if it's me who is the problem, like maybe I have unrealistically high expectations for friendships, or something. I don't know. I really would ike to think i don't. posted about it in Relationships and communication forum. I do have other friends whom, while they are not close close, I feel good about them. I don't know. Maybe its not a big deal.

Hi starrysky. As you noticed, probably I'm not the most qualified person to give you an advice. But I read your posts, if knowing that helps a little, and I know how it feels when you cannot find someone to talk to, especially when your emotions are out of control.

I, also, would like to say this general observation about human nature, and it's purely intellectual, because emotionally, probably I'm, let's say, not intelligent: we humans have the longest infancy period (about 3 years). During this period, our brains develop (most of the brain grows outside the womb after birth). But also during this period we get extensive and unconditional love and care from our mothers (and to a less extent from our fathers) because we are fragile. So, my theory is that our brain is in a way designed and hard-wired to receive love and care. We all seek these things, and they are so powerful. Love is probably the only single remedy for all the suffering in the world. Nothing love cannot heal, including physical pain. So, I don't think there is something wrong with you with regard to your relationship with your friend, because it's natural what you are asking for (i.e., attention). On the other hand, we aren't designed to be altruistic toward others. Maybe here is where the pain and suffering comes from. What we need is not what we get. We try reciprocity to give what we expect to get in return (the so-called Golden rule), but most of the time it doesn't work for us. The return doesn't measure up to our expectations, or more accurately to our deep needs. So, the only way out of this dilemma, for most people, is to accept some pain and accept what they partially get. I guess when they are somewhat happy, they accept this fact, but when they are not, they tend to activate their primitive and fragile self (I'm most of the time in the latter category, that's why I prefer to be alone, although loneliness is painful).

That being said, I think you have good plans and activities to do (from your different posts). Personally, I cannot even think of these things. I know at the intellectual level I won't change if I don't force myself to do the things I don't like, but still, I don't have enough will power to force myself, especially all I get is disappointments every time I try, and nothing is changing in my environment that would stimulate me.

I'm not sure if that was helpful. If it wasn't helpful, apologies in advance, and you can ignore it.

Thank you Mr. Stranger. I do appreciate your response. I ended up calling the helpline but was too shy to say anything about what I was experiencing. But, it seemed to shift something in me and after i hung up, I ended up playing a game of Tetris, which actually made me feel a lot better. Now I'm watching tv.

Lately, I'm wanting to find ways to deal w emotions on my own. Instead of leaning on people in my life. PC is one way. I also know I need to exercise daily, bc it actually helps. It was just hard to get myself to today. Also seeing like 65 ppl view my other post, but no one actually say anything was actually very triggering. I am saying the word actually a lot lol. I also know its not helpful to jump to conclusions.

I do thank you mr. Stranger and appreciate your pov and info. Take care.

I figured. That's why I posted although reluctantly, because when I write something I expect people to acknowledge my post somehow. I'm not necessary looking for advice, just acknowledgment. Anyway, I'm trying to slow down here if I can and keep it to myself more, because the more I write the worse I feel and more importantly the longer I keep myself in the loop. I think I need to internalize these feelings. Glad you feel better and found other ways.

[Lost_in_the_woods]

((((HUGS))))
I just wanted to say that I have also felt that way at times when posting a thread..which triggers anger and anxiety...which in turn makes me shy away from starting threads..which leads to me letting things get bottled up and then I read another person's thread about a similar issue and it just explodes out and we end up dumping all our crap out instead of being helpful.
Guess what I'm trying to say is don't let yourself get discouraged. Keep posting! It gets difficult sometimes especially when feeling emotional..to try to remember to not take it personally I think rarely is it ever personal..just people with their own stuff going on, maybe they don't feel in a balanced place to help atm..or the thread just doesn't speak to their experiences..Idk..just stuff I try to remind myself. - LITW

Mr. Stranger, I feel that way (worse) a lot, when I vent to my journal. A lot of people love journaling. Actually, it helps me sometimes too. But I can relate to what you're saying about like, writing down or posting your thoughts and feeling worse. I'm not sure if it's for the same reasons but thought I'd share that.

Lost in the Woods, thank you for sharing and the encouragement. It is truly appreciated!

Have a good night.

[Thunder Bow]

Take one day at a time, do not over worry. Worry feeds anxiety and anxiety feeds worry.

[MickeyCheeky]

Hey, you can post here anytime you want.. we won't judge

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Hey, you can post here anytime you want.. we won't judge

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