Everyone seems to strive to get better, and to achieve goals, except me. All the people I have known have progressed in their lives, while I'm sitting here frozen in time. Maybe because I don't believe I have hope in this life, or even deserve to be here in the first place. I'm so tired of all of this.

[Skeezyks]

[MickeyCheeky]

I can relate

Originally Posted by prefabsprout

Are you saying I need to do some biking? We are under an unexpected blizzard, and the summer seems to be farther away from now. Winter makes me more frozen. I cannot do anything

Yes the picture of the bicycle is my way of saying "Have hope", winter will not last forever, soon you can be outdoors and free again.

[winter4me]

I shoveled snow this morning and pushed heavy wet snow off the car, my fingers froze (couldn't find the gloves and it is well below freezing) but it did feel good anyway...
I know doing something rather than nothing helps, it is the difficulty is making the transition from here to there....(((((((hug)))))))

Originally Posted by winter4me

I shoveled snow this morning and pushed heavy wet snow off the car, my fingers froze (couldn't find the gloves and it is well below freezing) but it did feel good anyway...
I know doing something rather than nothing helps, it is the difficulty is making the transition from here to there....(((((((hug)))))))

I don't shovel snow because the landlord does that. I also don't have a car because the transportation system here is very good. So, I'm not sure what to do in this weather. I mean, these days I clean the apartment and do the dishes everyday, sometimes reading, ... etc, but that's about it. Other than that I stay in my apartment bored most of the time.

Originally Posted by Mr. Stranger

Are you saying I need to do some biking? We are under an unexpected blizzard, and the summer seems to be farther away from now. Winter makes me more frozen. I cannot do anything

Remember...
You are intelligent. Now I know you have a great sense of humor.

Not an answer, I know. But observations of the positive sort are what both of us need to hang on to.

(As an adult....I built snowmen. And made snow angels.)

Originally Posted by sophiesmom

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(As an adult....I built snowmen. And made snow angels.)

Thanks. You know, I've never built a snowman, although the snow here stays on the ground 5 months out of 12 If there were someone with me, I would do it, but alone looks weird.

Originally Posted by Mr. Stranger

Thanks. You know, I've never built a snowman, although the snow here stays on the ground 5 months out of 12 If there were someone with me, I would do it, but alone looks weird.

Maybe....but maybe you're doing it so that drivers will smile. Or kids can knock it down. Or a gazillion reasons that could be anyone's guess.

To be honest and we can take a poll here, I would think that you were someone who finds happiness in simple pleasures. And I would (and HAVE, in the past) smile at the thought.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by sophiesmom

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To be honest and we can take a poll here, I would think that you were someone who finds happiness in simple pleasures. And I would (and HAVE, in the past) smile at the thought.

I'm curious of what made you think that!! I think it's interesting how people create an image for others without seeing or interacting with them in person. Personally, I think I'm being perceived inaccurately in the cyber world, at least based on how I perceive myself.

How things work with me is like this: I get interested in things very quickly, but I lose interest even quicker. Part of the reason is that because I get frustrated very quickly when things don't work out or don't give the desired outcome or satisfaction. Also I think being alone and loneliness is another part of the reason. Doing things alone and for yourself is difficult to sustain and get boring after doing them a couple of times alone. I would feel more confident to go out and do things with someone. I admit that I don't get along with people easily, regardless of age, gender, or education (I didn't get along with other PhD holders as well). So, I'm in a way between a rock and a hard place. Both options aren't easy to embrace. But I digress, so, I will stop here

Originally Posted by Mr. Stranger

I'm curious of what made you think that!! I think it's interesting how people create an image for others without seeing or interacting with them in person. Personally, I think I'm being perceived inaccurately in the cyber world, at least based on how I perceive myself.

How things work with me is like this: I get interested in things very quickly, but I lose interest even quicker. Part of the reason is that because I get frustrated very quickly when things don't work out or don't give the desired outcome or satisfaction. Also I think being alone and loneliness is another part of the reason. Doing things alone and for yourself is difficult to sustain and get boring after doing them a couple of times alone. I would feel more confident to go out and do things with someone. I admit that I don't get along with people easily, regardless of age, gender, or education (I didn't get along with other PhD holders as well). So, I'm in a way between a rock and a hard place. Both options aren't easy to embrace. But I digress, so, I will stop here

Well...I would think that if I was driving and saw anybody building a snowman. I would think that there was a place in his heart that remembered joy from his childhood. And he wanted a moment of that.
And that is a fun person.

Yes, probably I would think the same if I saw someone doing that

[MessyD]

Originally Posted by Mr. Stranger

Everyone seems to strive to get better, and to achieve goals, except me. All the people I have known have progressed in their lives, while I'm sitting here frozen in time. Maybe because I don't believe I have hope in this life, or even deserve to be here in the first place. I'm so tired of all of this.

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way and I'm sorry but I disagree that everyone strives to get better. You're not alone. My hope is that it won't last forever and it's just a temporary feeling

It seems that way, though. For example, people here write that they are trying therapy, medications, CBT, ... etc (with struggles of course, but they are trying to do something to get better). I don't want to go to therapy or take medications, but I also don't have the willingness or energy to do anything. In other words, I don't want to get better. I mean of course I want, but any idea of change is aborted before it is born. I basically do nothing about my situation because I feel nothing is going to change me.

[winter4me]

I also make snow angels. Still, at 64, and this is a good snow for a snowman...

[Open Eyes]

I'm curious of what made you think that!! I think it's interesting how people create an image for others without seeing or interacting with them in person. Personally, I think I'm being perceived inaccurately in the cyber world, at least based on how I perceive myself.

Maybe because others can see you are a good person even though you don't see that about yourself.

I admit that I don't get along with people easily, regardless of age, gender, or education (I didn't get along with other PhD holders as well).

I have a feeling this is because other authority figures remind you to feel like your parents lead you to feel which I touched on in your other thread "guilt trip".