Accepting the Indifference

I am unrealistically longing for a protector to take me away from my abusers. I get upset when my family shows lack of empathy no matter how bad I hurt myself. I get it. No empathy, no protector, no hero to save me, so I must just stop hurting myself and save myself.

My not liking and being upset by how they are acting and what they are/aren't saying is not faulty thinking. They suck. I am not in the wrong. I should be getting defended, but they will not. I get it. It's not me, it's them. So, I am not letting it bother me. Take a deep breath. This mood will pass. They will not get the best of me this time. Those who say they love me are really enemies in disguise. Not all, just my mother, husband and one sister is a b**ch. she always was. Just stirring the pot, making trouble.

I remember an incident when I was 9 that my mother handled horribly and my sister sat right by her side, being horrible about what happened right along with her, like her assistant, and loving it.

She was nasty to me when I was a teen, too.

What a family! I can't trust my own family! How sad.

So I've blown them off. Good riddance!

We are going to need family one day it is really unfortunate that family doesn't empathize. I get the defensiveness just wanting to stay out of the way, so the bottom line family is suppose to catch up and understand how hurtful things are and be there for you.

Tisha,you have got to stop expecting your family to come good cos they won't.I waited 35 years for my sister and mother to do right by me they never came good for me.I cut my sister out of my life cos she has been a right abusive nasty ****er since the day I was born towards me!A list of aggression's and abusive acts against me as long as both your arms.
My mother I cut out of my life for three months but I let her back in cos she started to appreciate me better after that.My family were never there for me I have always been expected to live my life to serve their interests wants and needs.
If yours are like that cut them out and let them go willingly,no use going over and over how much it hurts that they haven't loved and protected you,or expecting them to from now on,they won't change.A definition of madness is doing the same things over and over again and expecting different results,same with people trusting them and expecting them to come good for you when they never have,haven't and never will!Sorry I know how much it hurts but there comes a time when we have to let go of the expectation and stop wanting love from a wooden horse.

Yes, you have to be your own hero. Family has limitations as you can see.

Feeling pretty darn good today. It's a new day! All I have to do is not call them. I'll find new friends to fill the loneliness. It's such a big, wide open world of possibilities.

Right, and you are very sociable and smooth when talking, so, this shouldn't be difficult for you Good luck