[lotusblossom19]

I just want there to be one day where I don't feel like literally everyone else is better than me. It always seems that way for one reason or another. The level of stupidity I'm on is disgraceful. I will never measure up to what I should be. I was never fast enough, strong enough, smart enough, or good enough. I struggle to express myself smoothly in conversations because of my stupid brain not coming up with the words I want fast enough. I'm stupid as hell for real. I will never be enough.

[sin333]

Babe, I understand what ur saying but don't be hard on urself. Sometimes we can be too critical on ourselves. I also think if u feel uncomfortable having a conversation it's like u are worrying about what u say next to the point where it doesn't come out right. Not everyone can be as great as say someone u know who u think "has everything!" if u kno someone like that, just remember she doesn't have "everything" she has problems too. So don't think u are not smart enough. I think u are just like me and replay the entire conversation, over and over again in ur mind to the point of ridiculing urself over every single word. Don't stress too much and that person won't think ur stupid or dumb, they won't even think twice about it and carry on. I hope u understand what I'm trying to say as I feel like my stupid brain can't explain this.x

[lotusblossom19]

Originally Posted by sin333

Babe, I understand what ur saying but don't be hard on urself. Sometimes we can be too critical on ourselves. I also think if u feel uncomfortable having a conversation it's like u are worrying about what u say next to the point where it doesn't come out right. Not everyone can be as great as say someone u know who u think "has everything!" if u kno someone like that, just remember she doesn't have "everything" she has problems too. So don't think u are not smart enough. I think u are just like me and replay the entire conversation, over and over again in ur mind to the point of ridiculing urself over every single word. Don't stress too much and that person won't think ur stupid or dumb, they won't even think twice about it and carry on. I hope u understand what I'm trying to say as I feel like my stupid brain can't explain this.x

No, you make perfect sense. Seems like you really get where I'm coming from and you are right. I appreciate your reply very much. Thanks a lot.

[sin333]

Originally Posted by lotusblossom19

No, you make perfect sense. Seems like you really get where I'm coming from and you are right. I appreciate your reply very much. Thanks a lot.

No worries, anyway I can help! I'm always here to listen, understand and comfortx

Lotusblossom, I know how you feel. A note about cognitive issues expressing yourself, I have that too. I find people are generally nice about it. I wish I was faster and smoother sometimes, but I know it doesn't make me stupid. You are not stupid.

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry you're feeling that way. I don't think you are stupid. Your posts here are very articulate and intelligent. I've been told that I am quick and witty but I still replay conversations in my mind and find fault with how I've responded or how I could have responded. It causes me social anxiety. Please don't be so hard on yourself. You're just fine the way you are. I always enjoy and appreciate your posts and I'm sure I would enjoy conversing with you as well. Best wishes.

[MickeyCheeky]

You're not stupid at all in my eyes; I bet a lot of people have similar struggles, they're just better at hiding it. But that does not make you stupid

[Unrigged64072835]

You're important. You mean something to us here. Have some compassion for yourself. You may not be perfect but you're not stupid, either.

[lotusblossom19]

Thank you all very much. Means a lot. I know it's a bad habit...attacking myself with these negative thoughts. I can truly be my own worst enemy at times. I wouldn't want someone to be unsparing in criticism towards me as I am towards myself. That would feel AWFUL. Guess I'll try to be easier on myself moving forward.