[whisperingskye]

So recent events led to parents discovering how bad things are for me at the moment, I'd been trying to hide it as much as possible.

Initially my dad shouted at me, I don't remember his exact words but he compared me to a teenager. And then he wondered why I didn't want to talk to him. He apologised a little while later and we have been ok since.

My mum tried to be all understanding and supportive, acting like she cared. And then today has been a right ***** and passive aggressive about stuff and I don't even know what I'm supposed to have done wrong.

Now I'm just hiding out in my room with my cat trying to keep the tears at bay.

I can't handle this **** right now.

Possible trigger:

I already have such massive urges to kill myself and this is just adding to it. I don't even know why I'm trying to stop myself anymore.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry your family is not being supportive. It's very hard for not-depressed people to understand depression. It is not your fault - but I understand y6ou'd feel hurt. Try to not put too much pressure on yourself, and remember that we're here for you if you need support..

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry your parents totally dropped the ball. What do they plan to do about your disclosures? I'm so sorry they aren't more supportive. We're always here to support you and to talk. Is there anybody else in your family or any close friends who would be more supportive? I still think you can come through this and get back on track.

[Bill3]

(((((WhisperingSkye)))))

I'm so sorry that your parents added to your stress and anguish.



Do you have a therapist or other trusted person to speak with?



What would you think of seeking emergency support at a hospital?

[whisperingskye]

I have been trying really hard at reaching out for the last week, been having contact with mental health team almost daily. They have been throwing the hospital suggestion at me but I keep refusing because it just isn't that helpful. I may have to give in and just go though.

My mother has called me a horrible person today. Amongst other things. And yet she wants to help? Help what? Making me feel even worse than I already did?? **** that.

It's all just getting too much.

I'm so sorry you're going through this right now, Whisperingskye. I really hope that it gets better for you.

My family used to be kind of unsupportive of me emotionally, when I was in college, and a year after that. They just pushed me and pushed me. They wanted me to be successful, is all, and they didn't know how to be the way I needed them to be. I just wanted to share that with you, because I know what it's like. I'm glad that at least you are ok with your dad.

I'm glad that you are with your mental health team a lot lately. I hope they are helping. You have the hospital if you really need to go.

[mugwort2]

I feel so truly sorry for you Your parents, especially your mother sound toxic. Please realize their attitude is NOT a reflection on you. I think Bill's questions are queries to consider. I do realize its your decision whatever you decide. My mom was often cold to me and my dad was literally distant, ie mean physically, geographically because he was coinstantly traveling throughout the US as a member of pop music band. I live in the US.