I feel alone

I always seem to keep myself busy and hobbies make me happy. Lately I noticed how not many people seem to talk to me and I've moved quite a few times in my life. It's sad when your in you're 30s, living with parents still due to your disorder and don't have much of a social life. I even feel like an alien whenever I go into chat rooms.

I don't push anyone away either, people end up not speaking to me due to distance, meeting new friends or cause there too busy with their own life. So I end up feeling sad and heartbroken.

I'm so desperate for friends... yet I'm so shy and afraid nobody will like me due to low self esteem from abuse: as a child and in a romantic relationship. Sometimes I fear I won't make any new friends. My outlet now pretty much is forums and hoping I meet new people.

Do you have any hobbies or interests that could involve joining a group for it? Perhaps seeking out people will similar interests could help.

If you attend church, it can be another place to find friends.

Feel free to PM me if you ever want to chat/vent, by the way.

scaredandconfused has a good point: at my church I participate in things that are not overly religious. There is: 2 bible studies, a singles group, a single ladies supper club, a book club, and a movie matinee club. This provides me with social contact. I've also made friends at the YMCA where I work out. I hope some of these suggestions help or give you some ideas. Good luck and best wishes.