[yayanats]

Hi everyone this is my first post so hope I'm posting this in the right place.

I'm currently having therapy because I've suffered with depression anxiety and an eating disorder for quite a long time, but feel like I don't have anyone to talk to in my life about this situation besides my therapist. My friends don't understand because they have never worked or had children so think I'm exaggerating or will get over it soon. I hope I will find some comfort talking about it here.

I work in childcare as an assistant for my mum who runs the childcare business from her home. We had a little girl in our care for 2 years. When she first came to use she was about 8 months old, we had her 11 hours a day 5 days a week - along with other children of course. Just before Christmas, her mum told us there were a change in circumstances and that she wouldn't need us to look after the little girl anymore as she would be staying home with her dad. I honestly was and still am completely devastated. I had built SUCH a strong bond with this little girl. She followed me everywhere I went, she spend both her 1st and 2nd birthday at our house, I saw all the milestones - first steps, first words, when she started solid foods, literally everything. I was devastated and tbh I just can't get over it. She left over 2 months ago and I'm just missing her beyond belief. I don't really know how to cope. I cry every night in the shower where no one can see me then try and put on a brave face.

I just wish her mum would call and say she's coming back!

[Skeezyks]

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[Aviza]

As a mom it's wonderful to hear you cared so much for a child in your care. But since she's not your child the time would eventually come when you'd be separated from her. I understand your pain as I loss custody of my children after being a mom for 12 years. It broke me and resulted in my sons suicide. With that said try to teach yourself to not get so attached. And maybe you'll get lucky and run into her one day. My son's daycare lady saw us at the grocery store when he was older. I was surprised she recognized him but she had fond memories.

[DoroMona]

I can sort of understand your feelings since I also have a tendency to get overly attached to people. I wonder if you wouldn't have better support from a website specifically dedicated to childcare. I think in this case you probably just need time to get over it, but maybe this isn't a good job for you in the long run, if it's natural for you to get so attached to the children. Also, since you're now experiencing this *void* in your life, maybe you could try to fill it with something new.

[MickeyCheeky]

It's understandable you'd feel this way. But eventually the time had come that the little girl would go back with her parents.

Perhaps one day you will have a son, and it will be all yours

Are you discussing this with your therapist? You could try to buy a dog, or a cat, to keep you company.