How are you coping today?

I woke up extremely angry this morning for some reason T_T Can't stop F-bombing every inanimate object that crosses my path. lol.

I'm really having a hard time today. Going out with family was a distraction but the number three still won't leave me alone. I can't post what it wants me to do. It'll tell on me.

I got chores done today,but I got over tired from overdoing the physical exertion,now I am severely depressed.I feel restless and agitated and I am tired,I need some sleep,can't settle though.

Try not to let it get you down, Marylin. You will feel better tomorrow.

i am feeling confused, and tired hope it will go away, its still morning

Inside not coping at all. Just hanging on by a thread. Outside I'm calm and steady, biggest con job in the world. So many people count on me, if I fall we all go down. So I push on, but if I didn't have my meds I believe I would collapse.

Bearly hanging in there today. Monday morning and I wonder what my boss has up her sleeve today to make me feel like crap. I had such a nice weekend, but this morning I feel like all that good feeling is gone.

I'm coping okay. I just got back from the grocery store. I bought some ingredients for goulash. I thought I'd get out of the house but then I remembered what a pain in the butt grocery shopping can be. At least I did it.

coping okay.

though saying that I've not really had anything major to cope with

lol

Nuclear meltdown o clock here someone please either make it stop or make today explode?

It was extremely hot here in South UK today.I left the cats indoors with plenty of water and the fan on.....came back at 4pm when it had cooled down and let them into the garden.I think I will sleep downstairs with the patio door open tonight and leave them out so they come in tomorrow and I can leave them in during the day again.I took myself to the cinema and spent the afternoon in watching a film,there was air con on in the cinema theatre so that kept me cool.I don't usually cope well with the heat so it is hard for me lately.I managed not to get depressed today so I guess that counts as coping well!

Good. Used self control to back away from the drama.

Not so great. The heat and wildfires - it's almost unbearable. 3 people I know and care very much about are IP right now. I had to run some errands around noon, but it got so hot, so fast that I wasn't feeling so good. I was one block away from my apartment and my car started smoking. I felt so frustrated that I stepped inside my apartment and just started crying.

coped well in the morning/ early afternoon,

then someone told me I don't know anything about theme parks and I'm livid

I need to show the world I do.

I ****ing do. I do ****ing know about theme parks

Stressed. Because I feel invalidated. I hate when people are flippant and don't give me what I need. I know that sounds childish. It comes from a childlike part of me. Because of the future and indecision I feel, and uncertainty. Because of a lot. Perhaps I'm too isolated. I really don't like being in this state. But sometimes I think some people are so DUMB. They don't care. Or they don't know how to.

edit: I am feeling better! Sometimes I have to try a few things and see what works and what I need. I ended up cooking. Goulash. I'd been planning to do it, really didn't want to, but pushed myself, and I'm glad I did. Sometimes just getting active and taking my mind off my problems really helps.

Miserable for a misunderstood person. I can't seem to get out of the rabbit hole.

Hope everyone is OK

Stress levels are down. Even with a car thing that I've been trying to push until back to work, I feel unphased for having put myself into a position to be unphased because I had a gut feeling if I didn't the rug would be pulled from me. Low stress from not having word from extended family of origin family. Plus I had incorporated yoga back into my life a couple of weeks ago so that's a factor. Did I mention that I needed to call my landlady about the ceiling leak again(it's the same spot over and over again right above my fridge)? Even my laundry card is ready and waiting for me to use it not that I didn't use towels from the hamper...

*wants to send a nasty email to natalie to ask her why she banned me from her website*

I think I know, but want to just wind her up

suppose not too bad, even if I am struggling with the fact I through out a pizza

I’ve come out of my toxic relationships and am moving forward. But this was really rough. I understand myself, my intentions, emotions, how much was me in the dysfunction and what is unhealthy inside me and why. But I am reeling from having proof now and seeing how much was THEM. I never wanted to think I was a victim, but I really was. It’s not that they set out to hurt me. It’s just that people are really whack and do really stupid, hurtful things. I so wish they didn’t, but I can’t control that. I was under the misconception that someone who tells me they love me has my best welfare at heart and is not stabbing me in the back— but they did. My friend is so jealous that for 40 years she pretended to love me while she underhandedly looked to take me down, even spreading lies about me behind my back— just a horrible person who fooled me. My husband just put himself first while he professed to love me. He said what I wanted to hear but then disregarded me and lied to me, too. I believe this happened to me because maybe people just really do this to each other. Is it everybody? Is anybody real? I don’t want to spend any more time and money on therapists. That was an awful, gaslighting experience, too. I’m stuck between obsessing on my wounds and trying to move forward with healthier life. Basically I’m stuck in a rocking chair right now.

So far I am ok.

I'm not

I am seeing warnings.I am not meant to have contact with my narc sister at all but we agreed to exchange texts if we need to talk about my elderly mum's care.Today she was with mum when I phoned mum's house and she started getting angry and raging at mum to tell me off for arranging to go out with my niece the next two Saturdays.My sister takes time off from caring for my mum on Saturdays and Sundays and want to take my niece out with her on those days.It is not ok to get angry and bombard me with hostile energy.It just takes a quiet adult request not to arrange outings for weekends.I just send her a text telling her she is not in charge of me to reprimand me and to be respectful in future or I will cease all contact again.I am upset and angry that she thought its acceptable to use me as her punching bag and I told her so.People take liberties and should be more thoughtful in their communications.I really need to be totally no contact with this narc *****.She went into one of her narcissistic abusive rages.I am not coping well now because of her behaviour.

I’m just focusing on one hour at a time today.

I'm coping okay. I am taking time for myself. Earlier I watched some of a movie. I also went to my parents house and talked to my brother. It was helpful and also a nice distraction.