How are you coping today?

feel like today's been mainly wasted.

I ate junkfood and watched " hotel for dogs", which is the extent of my motivation today

short answer: day wasted

long answer: for most of the day, I don't even remember what I got up to

that's how wasted it was

I am coping mainly through distraction,If I can't deal with my feelings I try to avoid them,I do this by going to see a film,stuffing my face with cake and buying scratchcards and lottery tickets,and focusing on what to get for whom for xmas.

One hour at a time. The day wasn’t too bad. I got some pretty good news actually. I just need to take things one by one.

Better now than the first part of the day. I realize I need to be more gentle with myself.

I feel extremely lucky today

yesterday my dinner was off, and overnight, I had a really bad tummy ache

it continued for a lot of this morning too- I'm still amazed how I was able to eat breakfast because of the pain

but now it seems to be subsiding, and I just feel really lucky that it's not worse and that their are no other side affects

just ashame that my overeating is 10 times worse than it was yesterday and I have nothing really going for me today.

mood's okay despite not sleeping again

weather is raining

Reasonably OK, considering how sleep deprived I am.

Also been battling some intense jealousy the last few days.

I am coping badly today.

Haven't coped very well today.

Very well considering what's going in my life. Thankful for that fact.

Did ok at work and pretty productive, ate a good lunch of homemade soup, an orange and later ate my favorite snack, peanut butter cups with chocolate. Now tired that I’m home and dealing with jaw and knee pain. Yesterday did go walking in the park for about an hour and today hurt knee on gate in backyard. Should be back to new in a few days, until then I’m limping around listlessly with jaw pain saddened by the past and hopeful somewhat for the future.💤😴

found a new depression chatroom which I've been using for some of today.

that's been good to explore and get to know the people their

not very productive apart from that though- also had self-harm thoughts that went on for a few hours

I like that word a lot.

I guess you can say I'm coping, but not in the right way. I'm trying not to let a family situation get me down into a deep depression like before. So i've been doing a lot of meditation and using some vices I shouldn't be using. I'm kind of confused about my life right now and where I fit in. I have faith and hope though so that's good.

Well today has barely started but I'm positive because I had a good amount of sleep last night (the idiots upstairs were out all night). So it's hard to tell.

But on Tuesday night my jealousy got an unbearable point after something I read and I got so angry with myself. Jealousy is such a pointless emotion, I can't have that thing, there's nothing whatsoever I can do about it, so no point complaining about it. This is ridiculous. I had to distract myself with other things and try to ignore the very existence of the obsession thing. I have calmed down now but I am really sick of having these feelings.

My low self esteem manifested today. I guess I coped with it. I had fun seeing the show Benidorm at the theatre, famous faces and body confident actors. I felt old and unattractive. I have pain in my right arm when I move it, I think it is caused by my neck,herniated disc.

I cannot imagine anyone finding me attractive and wanting to be with me ever. And no one ever does find me attractive when out and about, fact, no one wants to be with a disabled woman who is fat and has a hump at the base of her neck and walks with a walking stick. I am not feeling sorry for myself, but I am sad about it. I am overwhelmed with feelings of inadequacy when I contemplate getting involved in a relationship. One for the therapist I think.

The thing is I cope too well with the limitations of my disability and the fact certain avenues and relationships are blocked to me cos of it. On the days I don't cope I cancel everything and hibernate.

I took a shower today and feel absolutely gross.

my back is really stiff because of fibro pain and honestly, I wish I could unscrew it, throw it away, and screw on a new one.

I was meant to cook BBQ ribs for dinner, but since my overeating is 100 times worse than before, I just called someone up to deliver me a mcdonalds at dinner time. absolutely no will power....
again no sleep, making it another sleepless week.

some of my halloween decoeration arived today, so need to see about someone coming to set it up (probably next week)

raining

I just woke up with iffy sleep. I went to bed earlier than usual, but I got up to pee a million times, and the arm I got my flu shot with was super sore since it's the arm I usually sleep on. I'd like to go back to sleep but unfortunately my cat threw up on my bed so my sheets are in the wash.

But after I "wake up", I have a few things in mind:

Eat mindfully, take my dog for a walk, bible studies, write letters, read a book, and maybe call a friend or two.

Very well, because I've been allowed to sleep the last 3 nights. 3 nights in a row! And I've been feeling much better and had energy. I know it won't last but I'm enjoying it while I can. And I've had the energy to get all my housework done early so I can forget about it for the rest of the day.

There was something bothering me, something I did as a child that I'm still ashamed of but I wrote about that in another thread.

Anxiety's up pretty high, trying to self soothe with disney music

Not bad at all. Just here cooking up a storm and staying away from toxic people.

with the acception of overeating issues and no sleep, pretty well I guess

yesterday I heard from my friend laura (who I'd not heard from in a while, so was nice to here from her), and I also had a falling out with someone else (well I say a falling out, it was more a miss understanding), but it's now all sorted- I'm still a bit bitter about it, and the fact this person's being a smartass, but what can you do

what I really want is to download some new music to my computer

but I don't know what yet- seems all the songs I like and that I can think of I have

Not so good today. Way too much stress, and anxiety

Last night was terrible (withdrawal symptoms), but today is much better.